hlatus

There are a million and one thoughts that flow through my head at every given moment. I've learned quite effectively to quiet them somewhat or at least how to find the on i want to focus on at that given moment in time, but sometimes i just don't know what to focus on and it gets to an overwhelming degree. When my ex would complain...
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Today is a day which everybody reveres. I have seen flags at half-mast and on the front page of my email inbox there is the story... Seventh anniversary of 9/11. It's amazing how those numbers impact those of our generation. What was it for? Was it planned by our very government in order to do a preemptive strike on Iraq? Why have we not found...
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Today was interesting. I did finally decide to get some sleep around 11 am... woke up at 3:00 or 3::30 and had it in my head to get a tarot reading done today. I used to read cards but could never do one on myself... now from what I understand, i guess that's a big no-no. So, tonight (just an hour ago or so), I...
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I'm sick of apathy
I'm sick of greed
I'm sick of consumerism
I'm sick of TV and mindless entertainment
I'm sick of government
I'm sick of pettiness
I'm sick of ignorance

I want people to feel and I want to feel
I want to stop being desensitized by the images on a flickering machine
I want to people to love one another and realize we're...
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As of lately, I've been thinking a lot about freedom and what exactly freedom is. I go on spiels about how anarchy is true freedom and we can never be free unless there is no governing body nor "elite" nor caste system. I still believe this strongly in a sense of the word freedom. But, my contradictory side to this, is that we are still...
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I haven't written a blog in awhile... that's slightly depressing I guess. I do need to write more.

Anyhow, today I got a little freaked out because Audrey ran out the door... luckily she just walked a little ways down the walkway and just cried the entire time for no apparent reason. I'm worried that she's sad because I'm not home enough or something along...
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I haven't smoked a cigarette in about six hours. Hopefully I won't break.

So, I'm thinking about giving up on people. I seem to be on a constant look out to make new friends and create a social network and just have SOMEONE to hang out with that it seems like a completely disappointment when nobody's available, nobody answers their phone, and whenever I show...
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Wow it's a beautiful morning. The sun is newly rising like a phoenix fresh from the ashes and the birds sing cheerful medleys that they learned the night before. I smoked a cigarette on my back porch, it's still night time for me I guess... but it really feels like morning. The apartment's quiet but for the first time in a long time it's a...
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I think I'm paranoid. No, I take that back... I know I'm paranoid. Anyhow... today while I was at work an undercover PD, or detective, some government person drove up to my place of business and parked in the car. Apparently he glared at one of my coworkers so maybe he was tailing him. But in any case, when I drove up the driver he...
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So, I'm starting to wonder if I should even bother reaching out to people. It seems everybody's involved in a time-warped reality where intelligence is completely null and void. I kind of feel sad for my fellow man. We have no peace, none what-so-ever, everything swarms us and attacks us like bees protecting the hive. We are not free and I'd assume will not endure...
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