hlatus

I haven't smoked a cigarette in about six hours. Hopefully I won't break.

So, I'm thinking about giving up on people. I seem to be on a constant look out to make new friends and create a social network and just have SOMEONE to hang out with that it seems like a completely disappointment when nobody's available, nobody answers their phone, and whenever I show up online they go offline. It's kind of annoying and I don't really know if I want to actually care anymore about it. I shouldn't care about it in the first place... it matters not how many people I know, just that I can cure my boredom somehow.

Question though... Am I a strange individual?

I was watching 40 Year old Virgin last night and yeah... I'm almost THAT bad (but I'm not a virgin) I think... completely shuttered into a world that doesn't really include that many people because when I attempt to include people, people become noninclusive. Social problems does not constitute failure in life nor does is constitute that one is not "acceptable." It simply means one was not meant for a large social network or even any social network. If one cannot accept life by one's self, how does one expect to accept life with another?

I think my cat might have just found a mouse... I should check on that...

Until next time,

-Hlatus