hlatus

So, I'm starting to wonder if I should even bother reaching out to people. It seems everybody's involved in a time-warped reality where intelligence is completely null and void. I kind of feel sad for my fellow man. We have no peace, none what-so-ever, everything swarms us and attacks us like bees protecting the hive. We are not free and I'd assume will not endure freedom by the time I die. This is a kick to each and every one of our reasoning for living. This is a blow to the belly of love and peace. How can I be happy enough to love my fellow man and not to segregate or start crime if all there is is oppression, segregation, no respect, and no thoughtful processes? On some days I feel like grabbing a gun and wiping out all of humanity whereas on other days I see beauty in places most people don't. It's conflict within a conflict. Perhaps part of it is my intensive need for people... friends... perhaps just someone to care? Why do I feel like that? Hell if I know... perhaps I'm bored. Actually that might be it, boredom.
So last night, I watched on this very computer and internet hook-up TWO movies (early morning), sat here and vegetated to video games, and for what? To cure boredom I'd assume. Does it work? No, not really. You see, with the presence of friends, or people indeed just wanting to "hang out" you have yourself something different from the every day routine. For awhile I was getting messages left and right from people, not only on here but on items like facebook and everyday email and that was keeping me interested, engaged, and keeping an aspect of difference in my normal daily schedule. Lately I check my email and my other applications and all are empty of new events.
I think I have a problem.