hippyxxx

I write this entry as the bitter defeat is setting in... but let me tell the (semi)full story:

Early in my college experience, I dated Amy. Amy is a fantastic girl who, like all truly good ones, was grossly under-appreciated and DEFINITELY taken for granted. I won't ramble, but I was lucky.

Well, through a series of strange events, I've tricked her into a few dates. Well, it has become apparent that we've both become very competetive. So, after talking a good amount of smack, we decided to take on a few games, most notably Trivial Pursuit and Literali.

Well... I got my ass annihilated at Literali due to a permanant 6-point-word clause for people named hippyxxx. Who knew? Tonight, we played Trivial Pursuit. For some reason, I really thought I had a chance, but of course, she wiped the floor with me.

I really want my voice to come back. I'm tired of being able to talk only sometimes. I feel like a jackass when I can't fill silences with something worthwhile. As comfortable as I've become with myself, I'm still intimidated by this girl, and as weird as this may sound, that is a part of the reason she's still important to me. She's one of the people you meet in life that you can learn from, which is an extremely sexy thing when you're not cool like me.

Something negative about recent events then, to balance the fun: She thought I was cheating on her... thought the reason our relationship ended was because I was seeing someone else. It hurt my feelings that someone would ask me that, but in the same respect made me think of how I've felt when I've found that my girlfriends (at those particular times) were cheating on me, and it makes me feel like poo that I would give someone that vibe, that feeling, even though it wasn't true. I've written some short jots about that today, and they're actually good. I may post a few sometime.