some times i have this immense feeling of lonliness, i tend to get very quiet and introverted, i feel like i am starved for physical affection and i just need some one to hold my hand or hug me, maybe a simple kiss on the forehead and some meaningful eyecontact, really i just need someone to be there with me. it's really a horible feeling, it quite literally makes my heart ache when i get this way....
today was one of those days, i woke up feeling it, i hoped going to work and enjoying my coworkers company would solve it, no dice, if anything it just made it worse, i was around people who to varrying degrees felt the same way i did.
when i get this way, and there happens to be no one i can find comfort in there is only one thing that ever seems to work....
i walk home from where ever i am no matter how far the distance, no matter what the weather and i find a park with a swing set.
i swing until my legs get tired then i just stop pumping and wrap my arms around the chains and hold my own hands.... i stay this way thinking all of my lonely thoughts until the swing stops moving more or less, then i get off and i finish my walk home still holding my own hands, when i finally get to my doorstep i look up at the sky one last time and i wish on a star that the next time i feel this way there will be someone there to banish my lonliness, then i walk inside kiss my reflection in the mirror and put on my jammas.....
tonight i left chopsticks (where a coworker and i went after work) around 1 am, i just got home around 445 and now i'm in my cloud pajamas sitting on my bed with elmer my faithful hippo and strawberry my bunny love sitting beside me, i think i'll grab ettiene the francois monkey and call it a night.
so, goodnight world, i hope you aren't as lonely as i feel, and that somewhere in my dreams we can all find eachother for comfort
E
today was one of those days, i woke up feeling it, i hoped going to work and enjoying my coworkers company would solve it, no dice, if anything it just made it worse, i was around people who to varrying degrees felt the same way i did.
when i get this way, and there happens to be no one i can find comfort in there is only one thing that ever seems to work....
i walk home from where ever i am no matter how far the distance, no matter what the weather and i find a park with a swing set.
i swing until my legs get tired then i just stop pumping and wrap my arms around the chains and hold my own hands.... i stay this way thinking all of my lonely thoughts until the swing stops moving more or less, then i get off and i finish my walk home still holding my own hands, when i finally get to my doorstep i look up at the sky one last time and i wish on a star that the next time i feel this way there will be someone there to banish my lonliness, then i walk inside kiss my reflection in the mirror and put on my jammas.....
tonight i left chopsticks (where a coworker and i went after work) around 1 am, i just got home around 445 and now i'm in my cloud pajamas sitting on my bed with elmer my faithful hippo and strawberry my bunny love sitting beside me, i think i'll grab ettiene the francois monkey and call it a night.
so, goodnight world, i hope you aren't as lonely as i feel, and that somewhere in my dreams we can all find eachother for comfort
E
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As are hugs. A big one from me to you and a thank you from the bottom of my heart for reaching out to me when I've been down.