i am awake super early and smiling, i love this feeling....
speaking of loving this feeling let's recap a lil for you kiddies...
first off thank you to every one who let me fill out the 7 question thingy, and especially thank you to those of you who returned the favor, the answers both giving and recieving were amazing to think about.
now on to the last few days!
thursday was a great hangout day, but i was in this mood i consider classic elena.... that's where i want to be surrounded by people, but i don't want to have to socialize.
*i used to solve this tricky mood by making geeky boys come to my house, they would get high, drink pbr, and play DnD, i would happily get contact high and cuddle up on the futon and just observe them. it really made me feel content in my own way. *
but yeah, it was defintely a case of the fishbowls on thursday, but i was a good girl and i did socialize. but i suppose when i have some of the best people around me, the close ones that make me so happy, i have to. i really appreciate having these types of people in my life.
at the end of the night i ended up walking home (about 4 miles), it was a great walk! and it was the equivalent of a cold shower
yeah that's the crazy part about thursday, even though i was feeling the anti socialness i was also overly, ummm, worked up, yeah thats it, worked up. so a cold shower, or some cooling off time was what i depserately needed at the end of the night. (maybe that's why i was feeling antisocial eh?) i got home, and wrote for a bit, it felt dammned nice. i even managed to pass out mid sentence, guess even though my mind was awake, my body was tired.
friday i spent most of my day making sure people were happy and healthy, spreading the love of bagles and water to those who needed it, i got some good sun time, and had people constantly in front of me in a kneeling position
it was my kinda day lol... i guess getting to take care of people, and having them be truly thankful, really does something for me.
i even managed to take a small walk with my favorite baby bella, eat a ton of fruit, get groped by a mermaid and a satyr, blow some bubbles, get several excited hugs, a few kisses, and make it home with a pirate flag. oh and i found out what was under a few kilts, as well as got asked why i wasn't topless it was a great self esteem day!
after spending 9 hours on campus i finally made it home and hung out with my family. we watched some great dvds my marma bought for me, the fairy tale theater with shelly duvall. i loved them when i was a lil girl, and that love hasn't faded we found out.
i spent the last portion of my night being content, i read my guide to ruby, and watched those great stories, sporadically talking to my mom and her twin in between, i even got a phone call from the not to distant future. and that had me smiling, even more than the past two days combined had. finally i believe i passed out again in the middle of robin williams becoming less amphibian, and more human, in the story of the frog prince.
i felt so happy and young, ending the night with my mom giving me a blanket and telling me to take out my pigtails, it's great being able to revisit your childhood so easily, i loved that time in my life so much.
so yeah, the last few days have been happy ones, i think the only things that have even come close to making me sad are that some relationships change from, love and like, to the edge of being socially polite and unfortunately there's little you can do to stop that, as well as coming to the realization, that i still have some unrequited crushes, but that my friends, isn't a sadness, just a realization, that makes me thoughtful of those people.
i dunno what it has been, i guess maybe it was that *TING* dealer that elphie and i found on thursday, but what ever it is i hope it stays.
love, kisses, cuddles, good karma, and waffles to you all
E
speaking of loving this feeling let's recap a lil for you kiddies...
first off thank you to every one who let me fill out the 7 question thingy, and especially thank you to those of you who returned the favor, the answers both giving and recieving were amazing to think about.
now on to the last few days!
thursday was a great hangout day, but i was in this mood i consider classic elena.... that's where i want to be surrounded by people, but i don't want to have to socialize.
*i used to solve this tricky mood by making geeky boys come to my house, they would get high, drink pbr, and play DnD, i would happily get contact high and cuddle up on the futon and just observe them. it really made me feel content in my own way. *
but yeah, it was defintely a case of the fishbowls on thursday, but i was a good girl and i did socialize. but i suppose when i have some of the best people around me, the close ones that make me so happy, i have to. i really appreciate having these types of people in my life.
at the end of the night i ended up walking home (about 4 miles), it was a great walk! and it was the equivalent of a cold shower
yeah that's the crazy part about thursday, even though i was feeling the anti socialness i was also overly, ummm, worked up, yeah thats it, worked up. so a cold shower, or some cooling off time was what i depserately needed at the end of the night. (maybe that's why i was feeling antisocial eh?) i got home, and wrote for a bit, it felt dammned nice. i even managed to pass out mid sentence, guess even though my mind was awake, my body was tired.
friday i spent most of my day making sure people were happy and healthy, spreading the love of bagles and water to those who needed it, i got some good sun time, and had people constantly in front of me in a kneeling position
it was my kinda day lol... i guess getting to take care of people, and having them be truly thankful, really does something for me.
i even managed to take a small walk with my favorite baby bella, eat a ton of fruit, get groped by a mermaid and a satyr, blow some bubbles, get several excited hugs, a few kisses, and make it home with a pirate flag. oh and i found out what was under a few kilts, as well as got asked why i wasn't topless
it was a great self esteem day!
after spending 9 hours on campus i finally made it home and hung out with my family. we watched some great dvds my marma bought for me, the fairy tale theater with shelly duvall. i loved them when i was a lil girl, and that love hasn't faded we found out.
i spent the last portion of my night being content, i read my guide to ruby, and watched those great stories, sporadically talking to my mom and her twin in between, i even got a phone call from the not to distant future. and that had me smiling, even more than the past two days combined had. finally i believe i passed out again in the middle of robin williams becoming less amphibian, and more human, in the story of the frog prince.
i felt so happy and young, ending the night with my mom giving me a blanket and telling me to take out my pigtails, it's great being able to revisit your childhood so easily, i loved that time in my life so much.
so yeah, the last few days have been happy ones, i think the only things that have even come close to making me sad are that some relationships change from, love and like, to the edge of being socially polite and unfortunately there's little you can do to stop that, as well as coming to the realization, that i still have some unrequited crushes, but that my friends, isn't a sadness, just a realization, that makes me thoughtful of those people.
i dunno what it has been, i guess maybe it was that *TING* dealer that elphie and i found on thursday, but what ever it is i hope it stays.
love, kisses, cuddles, good karma, and waffles to you all
E
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Hope your well.
Might be in pdx soon...
EVEN THOUGH WE'RE A STATE AWAY.
[Edited on Apr 29, 2006 11:38PM]