hinder

I feel the shifting
right now
although the sun rises
it offers no encouragement toward my will
I don't see days recently, Its just one long day, and sleeping feels more like napping
I feel so patronized by everone, 23 years of lies, I can't afford to be naive now,or jaded, yet I remain sedated
ill tempered

I feel so full of passion
yet no where to project it
I have intrests, hobbies
but no real passion behind them
I feel like it shouldn't be forced either
so does that mean Ive yet to find my passion?
or will I ever?
Maybe it dosen"t exsist for all and i have create it
fuck
I want to be crucified for my beliefs