I am visiting my parents this weekend, or i should say visited as the visit is almost over. I decided to confront the beast in the closet of my mind...THE PAST Ooohhhh! A long time ago i moved to new york - umm 3 and a half years i think. and when i did I left a pile of pictures - and pretty much EVERY college memory behind. It's not that I had a bad experience in college - no not in the least. i DID however have quite the "associative disorder" with a certain person and that particular slice of life.
FAST FORWARD....
here I am filling a box of odds and ends that I'd like to take back to brooklyn. A few pairs of shoes, some shirts, a book or two, an 8 year old box of bari reeds (yeah WOW) and then I came across the checst of pictures. And in it I found formals and galas, hiking trips and journeys to metropolize. I found fraternities and still (Whew) close friends, and i found a number of pictures of the women in my life.
REWIND
Lately (as likely evidenced by previous posts) i've been a bit brooding. Can I still love someone? Can I trust another? And this is not solely in reflect to those who have come and gone - BUT simply knowing what I know today - is it possible for my to still intimately love another - do I have the capacity? In years past - the answers have been all short of yes - ensuring certain failure to solve the problem - is it a problem? maybe - no wait - it certainly is.
AND TO THE PRESENT
I can now say that it's time for a change. 2008 is the year the moves and like my body so will my heart (well sure it moves all the time whether I like it or not - but then I do like it on occasion when it stops moving ever so slightly). I can feel the need for spring and summer like a new pair of shoes. And my winter soles are worn out. I need to kiss, and need to touch, and - (in certain most manly situations) I need to cry with a confidant - a companion - a lover - an equal. it's taken me so long to admit that the past is just that - back chapters in an already exciting book. and I've been on the fence (or perhaps locked in the shed) for too long to not make more memories that in 8 years I should too look fondly upon.
and if I have it my way - I'll be an old dude still cherishing a palpable past while laughing at the future.
PS.
Harlequin
AND
Salliss
have sets in the hopefuls section. Make some noise for those girls over there so they can get paid!
FAST FORWARD....
here I am filling a box of odds and ends that I'd like to take back to brooklyn. A few pairs of shoes, some shirts, a book or two, an 8 year old box of bari reeds (yeah WOW) and then I came across the checst of pictures. And in it I found formals and galas, hiking trips and journeys to metropolize. I found fraternities and still (Whew) close friends, and i found a number of pictures of the women in my life.
REWIND
Lately (as likely evidenced by previous posts) i've been a bit brooding. Can I still love someone? Can I trust another? And this is not solely in reflect to those who have come and gone - BUT simply knowing what I know today - is it possible for my to still intimately love another - do I have the capacity? In years past - the answers have been all short of yes - ensuring certain failure to solve the problem - is it a problem? maybe - no wait - it certainly is.
AND TO THE PRESENT
I can now say that it's time for a change. 2008 is the year the moves and like my body so will my heart (well sure it moves all the time whether I like it or not - but then I do like it on occasion when it stops moving ever so slightly). I can feel the need for spring and summer like a new pair of shoes. And my winter soles are worn out. I need to kiss, and need to touch, and - (in certain most manly situations) I need to cry with a confidant - a companion - a lover - an equal. it's taken me so long to admit that the past is just that - back chapters in an already exciting book. and I've been on the fence (or perhaps locked in the shed) for too long to not make more memories that in 8 years I should too look fondly upon.
and if I have it my way - I'll be an old dude still cherishing a palpable past while laughing at the future.
PS.
Harlequin
AND
Salliss
have sets in the hopefuls section. Make some noise for those girls over there so they can get paid!
dwam:
I'm pretty late to answer, but I wanted to say thank you so much for your comment on my set Sorceress ! I'm glad you enjoy 