himadhaman

i'm tempted to say i'm lonely, but i'm not sure its actually true. i suppose its possible i'm just horny, having not gotten properly laid in far longer than i'd care to admit, but i'm pretty good at recognizing that. theres a lot of ogling, and shameless propositioning of exs and so forth. thus far there has been an admirable and grateful lack of that sort of behavior, which leads me to suspect this malaise of a somewhat different variety.

lamentably, understanding what its not has not significantly increased my understanding of what it is, which leaves me no closer to solving the problem.

i think the bottom line is something is missing.

at least i have a bitching hat!