I am actually extremely excited for it to be finally up. I shot this set with @arifp back in May and a lot has happened since then. I mean, it's almost been a year XD
I at one point gave up wanting to be a Suicide Girl and although it's not my top priority anymore due to school, work, and rehearsals, I would still love to do shoots. The reason for why I wanted to do SG was because of the positive message it conveyed - to celebrate how unique you are from everyone else. I have looked up to models such as @exning @quinne @suspiria and many others for a while now. For a while I thought I couldn't make it. I didn't have the self esteem. I was almost going into it for the wrong reasons - validation and for people to tell me that I'm beautiful. So I took a step back, re-evaluated myself and said that if those are the reasons for why I want to do SG, then that's not good. I should do it for ME and ONLY ME, not for other people to confirm that I'm pretty. It took me a while to tell myself this and to have that deep of an understanding, but I am there. I love me for me. The only other person's opinion that I care about is my boyfriend and I know that he thinks that I am beautiful, even if I am walking around unshowered, wearing yoga pants, and my hair up in a messy bun. I feel and am beautiful.
And even if I don't become an SG, who cares really. I did this set, I enjoyed the hell out of it, and I'll keep shooting whether or not it's for SG.
Anyways, I hope you all will enjoy it when it drops. I really love it. It's close to me, close to my heart. It marks an important part of my life. <3