these words are taken from an email to a good friend of mine. i will add new stuff in italics.
so Tom got me a new collar. its identical to the old one, just smaller.
it fits my neck much better.
its strange. i had a pretty strong.. connection with the old one.. but this one.. i cry just thinking about it. as in there are tears in my eyes right now.the things i feel about this new collar are very profound.
backstory. He had that collar before W/we met. months after i had been wearing it, i saw some pictures with it on another girl. she is nice, but after seeing that He had put it around someone else's neck it just didnt feel right to me. it didnt feel like it was mine. it was also too big for me. if i moved too quickly, jumped, or ran, it would bounce and hit me on the collar bone. that hurts a fair bit, as it is made of steel and is not exactly "light". i cant tell you how many times i have wanted to go for a run, but couldnt because of it. now, with the smaller one, i can run again. xD
W/we both nearly lost it when He was putting it on me yesterday.
W/we had just gotten it, and W/we were in the small dungeon waiting for some friends to show up to show them a tie.
He sat in a chair and had me kneel in front of Him. i had tears in my eyes when He put it around my neck. He was having a hard time talking - i couldnt talk.. i would have lost it..lol
He was telling me that it was only for me etc. it was a very intense and emotional moment for U/us.
it was an amazing weekend overall. one i will never forget.
the night we arrived at the hotel, a newbie was checking U/us in. he gave us room 408. Tom asked if there was something available higher up (10 floors of rooms) the guy said there wasnt. so W/we headed up to the room and the keys didnt work. Tom left me outside the room with the luggage and after a couple minutes some dude opened the door obviously having just woken up. i apologized to him and went back to the elevators and waited for Tom to come back. once He did i was all.. "there is someone in that room......." so He shook His head and motioned for U/us to go back to the lobby.
when Tom told them that someone was already in the room they were very apologetic and the manager gave U/us an upgrade to the top floor. heheh. again the keys didnt work. again i waited in front of the room. Tom went back down to the lobby and came back with chocolate, and coupons for free full breakfast and free drinks. W/we never got around to using the drink coupons.
once W/we were settled into the room, W/we were kind of wired (it was about 1230am) so W/we walked to the 7/11 for beer and wine and a couple other snacks and went back to the room and enjoyed those.
W/we got to bed around 230 am.
the next morning i woke up around 745 and decided to take a shower.
hexxy morning face
Tom got up shortly after. W/we got dressed and went out for breakfast. W/we went to a place called Vivace and had crepes. they were so fucking good!
after that we did some walking around. Tom was thinking where to go and suggested the hospital (OHSU) as there is a really nice view up there. i explained that i would rather not go there as i have been there before and the last time i was there i spent hours in the waiting room for my dad to come out of surgery. it is not a place i would be comfortable going. He was very understanding, so W/we went to the rose garden instead. it was nice.
on the way back to the hotel W/we grabbed some lunch-nothing special. theres a spot in the city where people park their food trucks at lunchtime. W/we grabbed some greek food (nom falafels!)
W/we went back to the hotel after that and changed into some other clothes. i kept it pretty vanilla with some black pants, black tee(cut up in the back), faux leather jacket and red heels(which i changed into at the convention center)
the workshops were fun, ive already forgotten what ones W/we went to. i would have to look at the schedule again.
friday W/we went to a workshop for exploring, developing, and implementing protocols, and then another on pain processing and catharsis. i found the pain one very interesting, and made me notice what it is i do to deal with pain. i have bruises on my arm from that workshop. we were each given a plastic clothespin to place on our body and then practice some techniques. it was kind of funny how after putting the pin on the skin between the thumb and index finger, and remembering how that felt when you have the pin on your inner upper arm, how that doesnt seem nearly as painful. i already knew that i laugh a lot when i am getting hit with the paddle. when i am hit with the whip i am able to zone out more and relax.
W/we we met up with some friends (people W/we will be camping with at burning man) and went to Mary's which is portlands oldest strip club, and had dinner. never made it over to acropolis to see Toxic though =[ just didnt have time.
the party that night was awesome. well, the parties on both friday and saturday nights were. SO MUCH FUN. so much great energy, so much happening. i really cant put it into words.. it was just great.
saturday night He was paddling me while i was kneeling at what was basically a padded church pew facing the main walkway (so there were MANY passers by)
n saturday W/we slept in a bit later, had breakfast at the hotel, and then went to workshops on whips, bondage for aggressive exchange and rough sex, and violet wands. i am quite interested in electrical play. i would love to experience that. W/we had dinner and drinks at The Farm. i had the dungeoness crab risotto.. holy crap was that good!
sunday W/we totally blew off the morning workshops and went to breakfast at muddies instead. it was nom. after that we went to a predicament bondage workshop and then a mummification and encasement workshop. bother were fun, and both were VERY interesting to me
one woman was enjoying O/our scene very much. I tend to yell out, yell owwww, and laugh hysterically when i am being hit with that thing.
she was standing there for a while, watching me. Tom had tied a very nice chest harness on me that makes my tits look pretty epic. He told the woman she could touch of she wanted to, so she did, and it was very nice. she stayed and continued to watch for a while after that.
Tom learned a fair bit about me during the workshops. i tend to do a specific kind of giggle when something interests me, and it seems Tom has picked up on that. He would often get a look and be all "interesting..." and smirk. it was great.
skipping to the trip back. W/we decided to have dinner at the airport as there wasnt time to grab something first. i had a couple drinks and got a bit uppity. W/we were heading to the bathrooms and Tom said something about me being uppity and my reply "so whatcha gonna do about it?.. *giggles* "
i giggled all the way into the bathroom. its a shame there wasnt anyone in there to hear me.
anyway, i waited for Him outside the mens room, and when He came out He started walking toward a relatively empty part of the airport. He sat down and had me present (with my clothes on) it was nice, and i couldnt stop giggling to myself.
after a couple minutes W/we went back to O/our gate to wait to board the plane. i knelt at His feet.
once W/we boarded the plane, and found seats, Tom informed me that i would be removing my bra while on the plane, so i did it right away, keeping my eyes on Him to avoid knowing who was watching me. i did it before there was someone else sitting next to me (a dude sat down a few minutes later lol)
i giggled a lot over that.
also, apparently i like turbulence.
allegedly tonight W/we will be exploring some of the things He discovered that i like.
i cant wait.
over time Our bond to each other just kept getting stronger and stronger.
when W/we got back to the house last night it was about 10pm and W/we decided to jump in the hot tub.
there was caressing and hugging and laughs and smiles. and some very strange intense energy between U/us. it was really good though.
He spoke of something while out there. how He feels about U/us. how He doesnt think of U/us as two separate beings but as one. while W/we were sitting, even i felt it, it was if we WERE one.
it was a very beautiful moment there last night.
really, many beautiful moments this weekend. i cant even describe them with words.
just..
wow.
I Am Changed.
and here is a photo of my ass.
on the plane waiting for takeoff
so Tom got me a new collar. its identical to the old one, just smaller.
it fits my neck much better.
its strange. i had a pretty strong.. connection with the old one.. but this one.. i cry just thinking about it. as in there are tears in my eyes right now.the things i feel about this new collar are very profound.
backstory. He had that collar before W/we met. months after i had been wearing it, i saw some pictures with it on another girl. she is nice, but after seeing that He had put it around someone else's neck it just didnt feel right to me. it didnt feel like it was mine. it was also too big for me. if i moved too quickly, jumped, or ran, it would bounce and hit me on the collar bone. that hurts a fair bit, as it is made of steel and is not exactly "light". i cant tell you how many times i have wanted to go for a run, but couldnt because of it. now, with the smaller one, i can run again. xD
W/we both nearly lost it when He was putting it on me yesterday.
W/we had just gotten it, and W/we were in the small dungeon waiting for some friends to show up to show them a tie.
He sat in a chair and had me kneel in front of Him. i had tears in my eyes when He put it around my neck. He was having a hard time talking - i couldnt talk.. i would have lost it..lol
He was telling me that it was only for me etc. it was a very intense and emotional moment for U/us.
it was an amazing weekend overall. one i will never forget.
the night we arrived at the hotel, a newbie was checking U/us in. he gave us room 408. Tom asked if there was something available higher up (10 floors of rooms) the guy said there wasnt. so W/we headed up to the room and the keys didnt work. Tom left me outside the room with the luggage and after a couple minutes some dude opened the door obviously having just woken up. i apologized to him and went back to the elevators and waited for Tom to come back. once He did i was all.. "there is someone in that room......." so He shook His head and motioned for U/us to go back to the lobby.
when Tom told them that someone was already in the room they were very apologetic and the manager gave U/us an upgrade to the top floor. heheh. again the keys didnt work. again i waited in front of the room. Tom went back down to the lobby and came back with chocolate, and coupons for free full breakfast and free drinks. W/we never got around to using the drink coupons.
once W/we were settled into the room, W/we were kind of wired (it was about 1230am) so W/we walked to the 7/11 for beer and wine and a couple other snacks and went back to the room and enjoyed those.
W/we got to bed around 230 am.
the next morning i woke up around 745 and decided to take a shower.
hexxy morning face
Tom got up shortly after. W/we got dressed and went out for breakfast. W/we went to a place called Vivace and had crepes. they were so fucking good!
after that we did some walking around. Tom was thinking where to go and suggested the hospital (OHSU) as there is a really nice view up there. i explained that i would rather not go there as i have been there before and the last time i was there i spent hours in the waiting room for my dad to come out of surgery. it is not a place i would be comfortable going. He was very understanding, so W/we went to the rose garden instead. it was nice.
on the way back to the hotel W/we grabbed some lunch-nothing special. theres a spot in the city where people park their food trucks at lunchtime. W/we grabbed some greek food (nom falafels!)
W/we went back to the hotel after that and changed into some other clothes. i kept it pretty vanilla with some black pants, black tee(cut up in the back), faux leather jacket and red heels(which i changed into at the convention center)
the workshops were fun, ive already forgotten what ones W/we went to. i would have to look at the schedule again.
friday W/we went to a workshop for exploring, developing, and implementing protocols, and then another on pain processing and catharsis. i found the pain one very interesting, and made me notice what it is i do to deal with pain. i have bruises on my arm from that workshop. we were each given a plastic clothespin to place on our body and then practice some techniques. it was kind of funny how after putting the pin on the skin between the thumb and index finger, and remembering how that felt when you have the pin on your inner upper arm, how that doesnt seem nearly as painful. i already knew that i laugh a lot when i am getting hit with the paddle. when i am hit with the whip i am able to zone out more and relax.
W/we we met up with some friends (people W/we will be camping with at burning man) and went to Mary's which is portlands oldest strip club, and had dinner. never made it over to acropolis to see Toxic though =[ just didnt have time.
the party that night was awesome. well, the parties on both friday and saturday nights were. SO MUCH FUN. so much great energy, so much happening. i really cant put it into words.. it was just great.
saturday night He was paddling me while i was kneeling at what was basically a padded church pew facing the main walkway (so there were MANY passers by)
n saturday W/we slept in a bit later, had breakfast at the hotel, and then went to workshops on whips, bondage for aggressive exchange and rough sex, and violet wands. i am quite interested in electrical play. i would love to experience that. W/we had dinner and drinks at The Farm. i had the dungeoness crab risotto.. holy crap was that good!
sunday W/we totally blew off the morning workshops and went to breakfast at muddies instead. it was nom. after that we went to a predicament bondage workshop and then a mummification and encasement workshop. bother were fun, and both were VERY interesting to me
one woman was enjoying O/our scene very much. I tend to yell out, yell owwww, and laugh hysterically when i am being hit with that thing.
she was standing there for a while, watching me. Tom had tied a very nice chest harness on me that makes my tits look pretty epic. He told the woman she could touch of she wanted to, so she did, and it was very nice. she stayed and continued to watch for a while after that.
Tom learned a fair bit about me during the workshops. i tend to do a specific kind of giggle when something interests me, and it seems Tom has picked up on that. He would often get a look and be all "interesting..." and smirk. it was great.
skipping to the trip back. W/we decided to have dinner at the airport as there wasnt time to grab something first. i had a couple drinks and got a bit uppity. W/we were heading to the bathrooms and Tom said something about me being uppity and my reply "so whatcha gonna do about it?.. *giggles* "
i giggled all the way into the bathroom. its a shame there wasnt anyone in there to hear me.
anyway, i waited for Him outside the mens room, and when He came out He started walking toward a relatively empty part of the airport. He sat down and had me present (with my clothes on) it was nice, and i couldnt stop giggling to myself.
after a couple minutes W/we went back to O/our gate to wait to board the plane. i knelt at His feet.
once W/we boarded the plane, and found seats, Tom informed me that i would be removing my bra while on the plane, so i did it right away, keeping my eyes on Him to avoid knowing who was watching me. i did it before there was someone else sitting next to me (a dude sat down a few minutes later lol)
i giggled a lot over that.
also, apparently i like turbulence.
allegedly tonight W/we will be exploring some of the things He discovered that i like.
i cant wait.
over time Our bond to each other just kept getting stronger and stronger.
when W/we got back to the house last night it was about 10pm and W/we decided to jump in the hot tub.
there was caressing and hugging and laughs and smiles. and some very strange intense energy between U/us. it was really good though.
He spoke of something while out there. how He feels about U/us. how He doesnt think of U/us as two separate beings but as one. while W/we were sitting, even i felt it, it was if we WERE one.
it was a very beautiful moment there last night.
really, many beautiful moments this weekend. i cant even describe them with words.
just..
wow.
I Am Changed.
and here is a photo of my ass.
on the plane waiting for takeoff
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kurosune:
I love everything about this blog AND you. 
drama:
Sounds like you're in a very happy place and I"m happy for you.