hexek

Well today is anew, and things have dramaticlly changed.

For the one person who might have read my last journal the rave was nice. I stayed clean but still drunk and I had a blast!

I am still confused with my soon-to-be ex-wife and her behaivior and do not know what to expect when I see her. She gets back in late October and hasnt said if she wants to see me or not. I told her I didnt want to show up if any guy "friends" are around her and touching her. I still have feelings for her and it would be disrespectfull.

And out of all the things she can say, she says, "Dont worry Chris leaves on a helo the day before we get back so he wont be there when we pull up." Fuck that hurt, bad. I am really trying to get the courage to just let go and am recieving aid from friends in succeeding.

I also want to say that I have the coolest friends every! They are so helpfull and supportive and I havent had that in a while. Im feeling less lonely and better about myself then normal.

I just hope I will after my soon-to-be gets back.

If you end up reading this, please drop me a line. Say "Hi".

Untill next time I leave with another quote.....

"Life lived for tomarrow will always be just a day away from being realized."

-Leo Buscaglia

Maybe I should practice what I preach.....