hettie

it's kind of weird when people from the past come back so suddenly into your life.

my best friend from when i was 16 whom i lost my virginity too one drunken night whilst we were both dating other people emailed me. i was expecting to have an invite to the wedding of him and his girlfriend from that time, but no. after 4 years they broke up.

we went out for coffe today and it felt like i was 16 again. i've never been so nervous before meeting a guy for a date or whatever.my stomach was doing flips and i coudnt look him in the eye for at least the first hour. i cant believe that after all this time i still feel like this and that after having resigned myself to the fact that we were never going to be together that there might actually be a chance. or at least a chance that we can be friends properly without having to worry about his girl - she never approved of our friendship and i suppose she was right to!

although i got sort of worried when he started going on about us getting drunk and phoning her up..

i guess i'm just going to have to hold myself back and not try and turn this into a perfect love story. i dont want to get hurt all over again....