ok ok ok...
had a full day.
got lots of work done in the studio, rejoined the site again, and discovered that I love drinking Davidson Brown Ale(not as good as McEwans Pale Ale or Belhaven Scottish Ale, but purty damn close).
Its almost time to veg out and watch some tv and then go to sleep. Tommorrow is another day to get a lot done. The sooner I open for business, the sooner I will have a big chunk of change in my pocket. As soon as that happens, I can move to somewhere I WANT to live. Part of me likes being in this limbo because I am nervous about trying to pick out somewhere to live that I think I would be happy at... Having herpes fucking complicates the matter so much. I could move to somewhere, then discover "the girl for me" lives a zillion miles away... I just dont wanna be alone forever. Right now, living in a small town, I am nervous about letting ANYONE know about my situation, people in this town loooove to talk because the have nothing else to do. I am just going to internalize all this shit and keep going like a trooper, cuz what the fuck else can I do. There are so many things I know how to fix, and so many things I can figure out with logic. I just have no idea how to meet girls in my situation... I have tried a bunch of those lame ass "meet people with herpes" sites, but fucking a, its always some stuck up preppy girl/stuck up girl who I end up meeting off that, and that is so not my style. I dont care about being rich, I just want to live a life with a cool chick who is a rocker. fuck, look at me getting all hibbitybibbity, I am schwilly and I shouldbe enjoying my buzz.
on a more positive note, I can not fucking wait to get my tattoo. I hope it hurts a lot and gives me a wikked endorphin RUSH!
blegh!
had a full day.
got lots of work done in the studio, rejoined the site again, and discovered that I love drinking Davidson Brown Ale(not as good as McEwans Pale Ale or Belhaven Scottish Ale, but purty damn close).
Its almost time to veg out and watch some tv and then go to sleep. Tommorrow is another day to get a lot done. The sooner I open for business, the sooner I will have a big chunk of change in my pocket. As soon as that happens, I can move to somewhere I WANT to live. Part of me likes being in this limbo because I am nervous about trying to pick out somewhere to live that I think I would be happy at... Having herpes fucking complicates the matter so much. I could move to somewhere, then discover "the girl for me" lives a zillion miles away... I just dont wanna be alone forever. Right now, living in a small town, I am nervous about letting ANYONE know about my situation, people in this town loooove to talk because the have nothing else to do. I am just going to internalize all this shit and keep going like a trooper, cuz what the fuck else can I do. There are so many things I know how to fix, and so many things I can figure out with logic. I just have no idea how to meet girls in my situation... I have tried a bunch of those lame ass "meet people with herpes" sites, but fucking a, its always some stuck up preppy girl/stuck up girl who I end up meeting off that, and that is so not my style. I dont care about being rich, I just want to live a life with a cool chick who is a rocker. fuck, look at me getting all hibbitybibbity, I am schwilly and I shouldbe enjoying my buzz.
on a more positive note, I can not fucking wait to get my tattoo. I hope it hurts a lot and gives me a wikked endorphin RUSH!
blegh!