Yay for new Breaking Benjamin....
I'm sorry for my absence guys! I'm usually physically here, but mentally I'm not sure where I am.
If you've PM'ed me and I haven't replied I am truly sorry.
I have been looking to shoot a new set, but I'm not having any luck finding a photographer or venue for that matter, not to mention I have so much going on that I don't know where to start. I really need a job so I can get out the house more. It's driving me crazy!
My fishy died. You know it's funny how I have that sixth sense. 2 hours before he died something told me to write a journal about him, so I did....and this is what it said.....
Life is very ironic at times. Fin, my 1 year and 7 month old Beta, has had a growth on his back fin for 6 to 7 months now (possibly longer) and out of all the fish that come and die quickly, he's still hanging in there. When my mom was very ill I used to say "what's going on, everything I care about that surrounds me is getting sick." Months have passed since the beginning of my moms illness and she's getting much better, which I am very thankful for in so many ways, but Fin's growth has just continued to grow larger and he just insists on fighting to live. The strange thing is he doesn't act like it bothers him at all, he still swims frantically in his bowl everytime a human passes by. He swims to the surface awaiting fish pellets. Or sometimes in the afternoon when the suns going down I'll catch a glimpse out of the corner of my eye and he'll be frantically swimming once more which is our equivalent of frolicking. I've always been told that fish don't understand and never make a connection with their owners but I'm starting to rethink what I've alway's thought I knew. I'm a firm believer in the saying "everything happens for a reason" and as corny as this may sound, I think that Fin has been hanging on for me. I mean months ago when the mass on his back started to get larger (which was around the same time my mom was the sickest) I just knew that one day I'd look into his bowl and he'd be just lying there floating. Ive seen fish come and go, but never one like him. Fish are ver fragile creatures and once they have an illness they usually die soon after. Nope not Fin. It's as if he knew all of the hardship I was going through and didn't want to add to my frustration. Whatever the reasons are, Fin, thank you for being the best pet anyone could ever ask for and if you must move on I'll understand and still swear that you did it all for me and you never let me down. Which is more than I can say for most humans I have ever come in contact with.
....2 hours after I wrote this Fin died. Yeah I know you guys are probably thinking who the hell writes about a fish? Well I do!
haha! I say I killed him by accident, but in all reality I think he just listened. So yeah life is ironic!!!! 
RIP Fin
You were beautiful in more ways than one!
The very next day my b/f's mom went out and bought me another one as a surprise... say hello to Fire....
A pic I took of my honey!
Well that's all for now, but I'll try to be sure not to wait so long next time before I update....
I love you guys!
xoxo
Heroine
I'm sorry for my absence guys! I'm usually physically here, but mentally I'm not sure where I am.
If you've PM'ed me and I haven't replied I am truly sorry.
I have been looking to shoot a new set, but I'm not having any luck finding a photographer or venue for that matter, not to mention I have so much going on that I don't know where to start. I really need a job so I can get out the house more. It's driving me crazy!
My fishy died. You know it's funny how I have that sixth sense. 2 hours before he died something told me to write a journal about him, so I did....and this is what it said.....
Life is very ironic at times. Fin, my 1 year and 7 month old Beta, has had a growth on his back fin for 6 to 7 months now (possibly longer) and out of all the fish that come and die quickly, he's still hanging in there. When my mom was very ill I used to say "what's going on, everything I care about that surrounds me is getting sick." Months have passed since the beginning of my moms illness and she's getting much better, which I am very thankful for in so many ways, but Fin's growth has just continued to grow larger and he just insists on fighting to live. The strange thing is he doesn't act like it bothers him at all, he still swims frantically in his bowl everytime a human passes by. He swims to the surface awaiting fish pellets. Or sometimes in the afternoon when the suns going down I'll catch a glimpse out of the corner of my eye and he'll be frantically swimming once more which is our equivalent of frolicking. I've always been told that fish don't understand and never make a connection with their owners but I'm starting to rethink what I've alway's thought I knew. I'm a firm believer in the saying "everything happens for a reason" and as corny as this may sound, I think that Fin has been hanging on for me. I mean months ago when the mass on his back started to get larger (which was around the same time my mom was the sickest) I just knew that one day I'd look into his bowl and he'd be just lying there floating. Ive seen fish come and go, but never one like him. Fish are ver fragile creatures and once they have an illness they usually die soon after. Nope not Fin. It's as if he knew all of the hardship I was going through and didn't want to add to my frustration. Whatever the reasons are, Fin, thank you for being the best pet anyone could ever ask for and if you must move on I'll understand and still swear that you did it all for me and you never let me down. Which is more than I can say for most humans I have ever come in contact with.
....2 hours after I wrote this Fin died. Yeah I know you guys are probably thinking who the hell writes about a fish? Well I do!
haha! I say I killed him by accident, but in all reality I think he just listened. So yeah life is ironic!!!! RIP Fin
You were beautiful in more ways than one!
The very next day my b/f's mom went out and bought me another one as a surprise... say hello to Fire....
A pic I took of my honey!
Well that's all for now, but I'll try to be sure not to wait so long next time before I update....
I love you guys!
xoxo
Heroine
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aldremech:
I am so sorry to hear about your fish 
Always hard to lose a pet, but sometimes more so when it humanizes itself. I think I will come apart if my clownfish dies. I have had him for almost 10 years now, so I am sort of attatched
Always hard to lose a pet, but sometimes more so when it humanizes itself. I think I will come apart if my clownfish dies. I have had him for almost 10 years now, so I am sort of attatched 
vonpink:
sorry to hear about Fin