I know I know..long time no update.
Really, I've just been in a non-communicative state these days.. I've got blogs on other sites and am just feeling altogether fed up with it for some reason. I'm just really tired of everything. All I really want to do is disappear into some anonymous studio in the middle of a big city (so that I have access to convenient and necessary food etc.), away from the whole world, all by myself, and paint, create, find my centre again. I'm so numbed trying to manage all the various issues right now and help everyone that my brain feels like mush.
This site ain't what it used to be either. Ooh tsk tsk-I can't say that-for fear of the stupid zot. Fuck that's so puerile. I really wish people would grow the fuck up and get a backbone, or at least a thicker skin. I suppose it should be expected given the demographic (no offense intended to those who are smart enough to see the big picture) but the shit that I've been watching lately round here (that has spread to other sites) is just plain absurd. Honestly, I've been wondering that I'm too old for this place, and wondering if theres any site out there thats a bit more suited to me.
If it wasn't for some of the really cool members I'd have lost interest already.
Oh, and I'm feeling much better thx. I'm happy to be fixed! 1 kid is enough.
Mum is still having a rough time of it. Too complicated to explain here, but its a day-at-a-time holding pattern still. Wish I didn't worry so much about everything, but there it is.
Really, I've just been in a non-communicative state these days.. I've got blogs on other sites and am just feeling altogether fed up with it for some reason. I'm just really tired of everything. All I really want to do is disappear into some anonymous studio in the middle of a big city (so that I have access to convenient and necessary food etc.), away from the whole world, all by myself, and paint, create, find my centre again. I'm so numbed trying to manage all the various issues right now and help everyone that my brain feels like mush.
This site ain't what it used to be either. Ooh tsk tsk-I can't say that-for fear of the stupid zot. Fuck that's so puerile. I really wish people would grow the fuck up and get a backbone, or at least a thicker skin. I suppose it should be expected given the demographic (no offense intended to those who are smart enough to see the big picture) but the shit that I've been watching lately round here (that has spread to other sites) is just plain absurd. Honestly, I've been wondering that I'm too old for this place, and wondering if theres any site out there thats a bit more suited to me.
If it wasn't for some of the really cool members I'd have lost interest already.
Oh, and I'm feeling much better thx. I'm happy to be fixed! 1 kid is enough.
Mum is still having a rough time of it. Too complicated to explain here, but its a day-at-a-time holding pattern still. Wish I didn't worry so much about everything, but there it is.
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thora:
If you get zotted for that I'll zot myself in protest. The eggshell thing is ridiculous.
chainlink:
good luck with everything. I'm going to go zot myself too. eggshells are sucking the life outta me. Drop me a line sometime and let me know what ya find.