As 2019 comes to an end, this is a post I had been wanting to write for a while but never knew if I should or not.
I had thought long and hard about whether or not I wanted to continue shooting sets for SG. Ever since I’ve become a mother my mindset on a lot of things has changed. I don’t discredit or think poorly of moms who model or do their own thing. Do you, girlfriend. I just personally have decided that my time with SG is officially done. I thought about shooting sets for other hopefuls because I throughly enjoy photography, meeting new ladies and getting to travel. I may from time to time decide to get a wild hair up my ass and shoot a set for someone who is willing to let me photograph them, but I’m not going to invest my time and effort into this site any longer.
I have spent years. 4+ years giving my all to this site. Building up the Instagram page, taking time away from family and friends because I felt like I HAD to go to burlesque events, spent a stupid amount of money on staff photographers and Airbnb’s. One thing they say is ‘being active on the site helps your chances at going pink’ which a lot of us OG hopefuls know, that’s a lie. There’s been plenty of girls who weren’t active on the site, had their set rushed through the queue, just so they could get the title of being a SG and then ditching the site once they got it. It’s extremely frustrating for myself and plenty of other girls who have worked so hard and given their all for something that doesn’t matter.
There was once a time where I felt super empowered being a part of SG. One of those ‘fuck yeah, I can get naked on the internet if I want too and I feel good about myself so fuck it all.’ The more and more you shoot for this site and nothing happens, you realize ‘hey, I felt like I looked good in this set, my makeup looked cute, I tried different poses. What’s wrong with me?’ You start to question yourself because you ARE being judged based on your looks. Sure, that’s the whole point of this site. Your looks. However, when you feel like you’ve done anything and everything to improve for the site and are no longer the true you. You’ve lost it all.
I spent so much time taking selfies and worrying about getting likes, making sure I posted everyday for all the dumbass hashtags because I was worried if I didn’t people would forget about me. I quickly realized I was forgotten a long time ago and that’s one of the many reasons I’m done with this site.
I took the time to get my sets deleted off of here because I no longer want the site to be able to have my free content. Sure, I bet you can still find them out there on the internet somewhere but getting them taken off of here was a huge start. I deleted 90% of photos on my Instagram that had anything to do with this site or feeling like I needed to post just to gain followers.
There are plenty of girls who still deserve to go pink and plenty of girls who have gone pink that I’m extremely happy for. I wish you all the best! I appreciate all the people on here who stuck it out with me and showed me love on every set/selfie that I posted.
I wish you all the best and good luck with this site.
-Hensely.
