hemightbegiant

I can't figure out what the fuck is wrong with me.
I have zero motivation lately. All my interests are waning.

I have never been religious, but I was always interested in the supernatural and spiritual stuff. Lately...stone cold atheist and no interest at all in the paranormal. People ask me if my job is haunted and I roll my eyes.

A month ago I could not wait to hatch my baby ball pythons. Now...I am debating selling them all.
Deep down I know I don't want to, but for some reason that dream of breeding them full time as my job...just burned out and I can't see it happening...
at least not as clearly as I could.

At my job...well, I just don't give a fuck about this place at all. Never really did though, so that is no different.

No interest in most of the shows I used to watch. None of the video games I like to play. Nothing.
Just kinda...numb.

No idea why either. I mean, I kinda see why with the snake stuff...losing my favorite snake to something as stupid as a respiratory infection fucked with my head.....but one dead snake should not kill my interest in all of it. Snakes are my passion. The one thing I am good at!

I just can't enjoy anything at all lately.
Sure, I see a bunch of snakes I want...but I can't get them due to lack of funds and having to wait out this bullshit respiratory stuff. (I am not adding any new ball pythons this season. Only holdbacks)

Maybe I just need this all to be over with...and blown over...to enjoy it again.

-Me