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Jun 15, 2013
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Life continues to alternate between shitty and sane. I still tend to overreact with dark thoughts and horrible downs, but I feel that things are slowly turning around and I am finally getting back to being a me I can at least like a little.

It is a strange feeling after months of really not liking anything about yourself to start to find rays of something good in you. It isn't always perfect, it still is sometimes far from nice and the effort is way too damn hard much of the time, but I feel like maybe I am ready to be a human being again, not just an ugly work-troll bringing home money to feed the grubs.

Hopefully I can maintain it and continue my path to something better. The writing has came back to me in a big way and for that I am thankful. I am still not up to my old speed of a 1000-2000 words a day minimum, but I am putting out a healthy 500-1000 that mostly works for what I am doing. I am also trying to find new ways to bring my writing to the masses and make people take notice. Walking Shadows is the first step. The next will be a series of interconnected short stories that I hope to debut in September. I plan to try my hand at a Kickstarter for those shortly.

Life continues on in the mean time. And I don't hate it. Go figure, right?

7./78.
yowlinyeti:
i was just talking with my best friend about how hard it is to love oneself sometimes. for me, the hardest part is to let myself be upset and sad, but not beat myself up about.

i hope that your writing helps you tro overcome some of your obstacles. i haven't written in a long time because i would judge my writing and throw it all away.

also i remember a very scary velociraptor dream i had years ago. pretty sure it woke me up and i was sweating and couldnt get back to sleep smile
Jun 15, 2013
kittywu:
Hope everything gets better for you and stop having those mixed feelings.At least hope writing about it can help you cope with them and eventually things go back to normal. Take care and thanks a lot for showing some love on my set, very kind. smile
Seee ya!
Jun 21, 2013

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