hellzaphat

I'm doin' alright. I'm currently living in my car and traveling around on whims, attempting to live for nearly free while cherishing one hundred percent free time. I've been doing so for over a month now. I started in San Diego, and I've made it to Santa Cruz, but I have no idea where I'll be tomorrow. I will most likely work my way up to Vancouver, but I have no idea where I will go from there.

My freedom from societal expectation is exhilarating, but due to my introverted and antisocial nature, I'm consumed by self-absorption and lonesomeness the majority of the time. I do enjoy the spontaneity and nonconformity immensely, but I'm still missing what I want most from life: love, camaraderie, and a sense of belongling. The sense of belongling that has eluded me throughout my entire life, perhaps due to my refusal to change in order to fit in. I seem unable to relate to anyone. Essentially, I am lost.

I will perhaps attend the Lovemakers show this Friday(08/15) at Thee Parkside, that is, if I am still in the city at that time.

Some pix:
http://www.geocities.com/jakevega/LJ/reflection1.txt
http://www.geocities.com/jakevega/LJ/reflection2.txt
http://www.geocities.com/jakevega/LJ/survega.txt
http://www.geocities.com/jakevega/LJ/three.txt

Until'
Hellzaphat

P.S. I wholeheartedly approve this new smiley.