Things calmed quite a bit. Now it's mostly sitting around or working nonstop. The working I'm not so into but the checks are nice. I'm trying to enjoy all of the current downtime because I know in about a week it'll all explode again. Then I've got a friend moving to LA and some other friends coming to visit from Austin.
I need to start coming up with a list of things to do in Portland when you're under 21 because one of the Austinites is. Of course coming up with entertaining things to do always becomes my thing since all of their other friends here just sit at each other's houses and drink themselves silly. I hate being the friend that's expected to take people out because I go out so rarely-I'm not very good at it. But I am usually up for it.
In other news: my best friend isn't really my friend at all anymore. After like 8 or 9 years I guess he's done. I called him a few weeks ago, in the midst of the madness and I left him a message. I also texted him in case he was on his bike and that'd be easier to check. He never called/texted back. I haven't talked to him once since then and I'm not sure why, but I'm not calling him anymore. It's sad mostly. Or I am anyway. I've been thinking about how in a lot of ways it is better to lose friends to death. At least then you don't have to worry about running into them and trying to figure out whether to ignore them or say hello and be awkward. I always choose awkward. It's what I do best. Plus-then you don't have to wonder why you aren't friends anymore. Cause wondering that right now is driving me crazy. I can't think of anything I did. Not anything unusual. I definitely bitched a lot recently about all of the ways in which he's been neglecting me, but I always do that when he starts neglecting me. Another friend said maybe my friends all hate me bacuse I point out what flaky assholes they all are. I don't know why all of my friends end up being such flaky assholes that I have to bitch about it incessantly. Whatever. I'm awkward-they're assholes.
I went to buy yarn before work the other day and the person with me said that listening to me fumble through a mini conversation with the girl at the counter was painful. I wish he could've heard all the crazy in my head as I tried to figure out what to say. That was the painful part for me. I'm not sure when all of the awkward started but I'd sure like to know how to fix it. It pretty much sucks. I'm gonna go fuck up my shoulder more with the wii bowling and then go to work. Back to my boring life.
I need to start coming up with a list of things to do in Portland when you're under 21 because one of the Austinites is. Of course coming up with entertaining things to do always becomes my thing since all of their other friends here just sit at each other's houses and drink themselves silly. I hate being the friend that's expected to take people out because I go out so rarely-I'm not very good at it. But I am usually up for it.
In other news: my best friend isn't really my friend at all anymore. After like 8 or 9 years I guess he's done. I called him a few weeks ago, in the midst of the madness and I left him a message. I also texted him in case he was on his bike and that'd be easier to check. He never called/texted back. I haven't talked to him once since then and I'm not sure why, but I'm not calling him anymore. It's sad mostly. Or I am anyway. I've been thinking about how in a lot of ways it is better to lose friends to death. At least then you don't have to worry about running into them and trying to figure out whether to ignore them or say hello and be awkward. I always choose awkward. It's what I do best. Plus-then you don't have to wonder why you aren't friends anymore. Cause wondering that right now is driving me crazy. I can't think of anything I did. Not anything unusual. I definitely bitched a lot recently about all of the ways in which he's been neglecting me, but I always do that when he starts neglecting me. Another friend said maybe my friends all hate me bacuse I point out what flaky assholes they all are. I don't know why all of my friends end up being such flaky assholes that I have to bitch about it incessantly. Whatever. I'm awkward-they're assholes.
I went to buy yarn before work the other day and the person with me said that listening to me fumble through a mini conversation with the girl at the counter was painful. I wish he could've heard all the crazy in my head as I tried to figure out what to say. That was the painful part for me. I'm not sure when all of the awkward started but I'd sure like to know how to fix it. It pretty much sucks. I'm gonna go fuck up my shoulder more with the wii bowling and then go to work. Back to my boring life.
larianna:
Is it one of the new digital ones, or one of the nice old-fashioned ones? I discriminate against the former.
volkov:
yeah. it fucking pissed me off to no end. It was like....he just wasted an amazing story up that point. everything that happened was for absolutely nothing. and it was such a cop-out. First he ends the story with Roland just getting in to the tower...and then teases you along to the rest of the ending. Just ending it with him attaining the tower would have been frustrating, but not nearly as angering as what he did after that. what a fuck head. he just wanted to finish the story as quickly as he could. there's no other explanation for him finishing the last three books all right on top of each other like that. I should go to Maine and cut him.