helltotheno

I'm still trying to figure out exactly why I talk myself into going to events that I know are going to be uncomfortable. It worked out in the end but I'm not sure it was entirely worth it. I'm also not sure why I continue to refer to certain people as friends when they behave like children and take every opportunity to anger or embarass me. There is fucking with someone and then there's actually being a rude prick and seriously fucking with someone and I'm not really okay with the latter. I don't really understand why you would invite someone out just to be rude to them.

Onward, I have a very good new friend. It's a little complicated or something because I've actually known this person for years and I just didn't see him very often or even have any idea how rad he is. So now I know and the harassment has begun. It's been a long while since I had a friend that I wanted to jump up to best friend status so quickly. We should be super tight. I don't know how to make him aware of this if he isn't already.

I'm sick of being so awkward. I'm also sick of having to go to work when I don't want to but all this shit I want isn't going to buy itself and I like having a place to live. I just need to find a better job very quickly. I'm done here.