hellstorm

so feel like a "bad friend" as of late here...people might think i don't read your blogs or anything, I do. please realize if I don't write something, either I'm too tired (which is happening more and more lately, since I rarely sleep more than 4 to 6 hours at a time now before my body decides to wake up) or have nothing to add. and since I usually take a long time to "process" and think things through, when I do have something to say, its usually a while (up to weeks) later. so don't think I'm ignoring people.

what else in my life? if I have to attend a funeral in the next month I will be pissed. my step-father's dad is wavering between wanting to turn 90 in March or not to live that long. add to that my great-aunt (who was a "late birth"...she's about 6 years older than my uncle) has 6 months to a year last I heard. her corotoid arteries are clogged or something and surgery is not an option. oh the joys.

work is work...still sucks looking for a job in a field you studied for 2 1/2 years and had to fight to get your degree in....and not get a job in part because of some greedy bastards who caused a nice economic crisis and a nepotism in the field where its a matter of who you know or who you blow to get in. what's really tough is knowing you can do a ton of good in the field and realizing you really won't have a chance because of how things are. seriously, politicians, when you look at cutting education, you damage the chance for growth. maybe if you start with something a little less long-term devastating...like not taking your annual 4% pay increase. something like that? oh well, I digress....hate politics. don't play it at work, won't play it elsewhere either.

so yeah, that's about it. during the week I'll be checking in on things....hopefully around more Friday night (work until 2 AM) and Saturday night (work until 10:30 PM). maybe chat or something...who knows.