Warning! Long long rant my lovelies....
STOOD UP !
I recently began talking to an old friend that I havent seen or heard from in years.
She was a high school friend, I mean I thought we were friends. We didn't hang out in the same circles & we didn't hang out anytime out side of school, but I knew this person for a very long time and I've always had warm feelings associated with her. I guess i though the feeling was mutual.
Anyway...
We started playing phone tag a few months ago but that line of communication broke down so I decided to give this person some space. I mean shit, if someone wants to get a hold of me it's not that hard.
So I let it go, and went about my life.
A Couple of months go by and she starts emailing me. We trade emails back and forth for a couple of days and then she suggest that we get together for drinks on friday.
So friday arrives, I get up, go to work. After work I grab a bite to eat at this local burger joint. (They make bitchin' Patty Melts by the way) and I sit in a booth reading a book to kill time before I meet my friend for drinks.
At 7:30 I get a call from my friend that she is stuck at work, and asks if we could do it some other time.
I say "sure" (I really don't want to make a big deal out of it) and that is the last time I hear from this person.
WHAT THE FUCK !!!!!
Why bother even asking to meet me for drinks if you're gonna flake?
I guess I should be grateful that she called, but even though she sounded really sweet & friendly, the phone call seemed insincere, but maybe that's just my mistrusting nature.
I don't know what I was expecting out of the meeting, she was a good friend a long time ago, but so what?
A relationship?
I'm far too damaged right now to date...maybe I thought she could be an exception...maybe I'm afraid of dying alone (Seriously, read my last post if you don't believe me.)
I dunno.
The only thing I do know is even after all these years, I can still be reminded that rejection sucks, and all of a sudden I'm fucking 16 again.
-Vaya con Diablos
S.
STOOD UP !
I recently began talking to an old friend that I havent seen or heard from in years.
She was a high school friend, I mean I thought we were friends. We didn't hang out in the same circles & we didn't hang out anytime out side of school, but I knew this person for a very long time and I've always had warm feelings associated with her. I guess i though the feeling was mutual.
Anyway...
We started playing phone tag a few months ago but that line of communication broke down so I decided to give this person some space. I mean shit, if someone wants to get a hold of me it's not that hard.
So I let it go, and went about my life.
A Couple of months go by and she starts emailing me. We trade emails back and forth for a couple of days and then she suggest that we get together for drinks on friday.
So friday arrives, I get up, go to work. After work I grab a bite to eat at this local burger joint. (They make bitchin' Patty Melts by the way) and I sit in a booth reading a book to kill time before I meet my friend for drinks.
At 7:30 I get a call from my friend that she is stuck at work, and asks if we could do it some other time.
I say "sure" (I really don't want to make a big deal out of it) and that is the last time I hear from this person.
WHAT THE FUCK !!!!!
Why bother even asking to meet me for drinks if you're gonna flake?
I guess I should be grateful that she called, but even though she sounded really sweet & friendly, the phone call seemed insincere, but maybe that's just my mistrusting nature.
I don't know what I was expecting out of the meeting, she was a good friend a long time ago, but so what?
A relationship?
I'm far too damaged right now to date...maybe I thought she could be an exception...maybe I'm afraid of dying alone (Seriously, read my last post if you don't believe me.)
I dunno.
The only thing I do know is even after all these years, I can still be reminded that rejection sucks, and all of a sudden I'm fucking 16 again.
-Vaya con Diablos
S.