hellobecky

Brad died. and I am not invited to the funeral. it's for immediate family only.

it hasn't set in yet that he's really, truly, finally gone. mostly I'm distracting myself with my ANGER that I, of ALL PEOPLE, will not be at his funeral. he hated his family. he only kept in contact with his parents because I insisted so. he considered ME his family.

I understand having a private service and burial just for family. but no memorial service for the people that loved him? how selfish is that? you did not own Brad! I did!

he didn't want a funeral, anyway. he always liked the idea of people having a big party and having a good time remembering him instead. so that's what I'll try to do.


in any case, it's time to get my first tattoo. maybe I'll hit up SGAtliens for recommendations.