Try and try to be part of the living when all you want is to be part of the dead........... 
Trying to live a simple life and find happieness, yet comming up empty. Why try? Why try to find love after having your heart stomped so many times? I find now that I will just try to be happy with me. Why do I need...
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Trying to live a simple life and find happieness, yet comming up empty. Why try? Why try to find love after having your heart stomped so many times? I find now that I will just try to be happy with me. Why do I need...
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I've never felt so lonely as in a room full of people....
Still sick. The lovely cold I have has now given me a sinus infection. I have a sore throt too now. We where also told that we will work another 58 hr week on top of which I will be working with my friend Brad to get my lizards cage finished and then...
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Still sick. The lovely cold I have has now given me a sinus infection. I have a sore throt too now. We where also told that we will work another 58 hr week on top of which I will be working with my friend Brad to get my lizards cage finished and then...
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aspartame:
aww being sick sucks, especially when you have to get work done! get someone to make you some nice chicken noodle soup...hope you get better soon 
psychosis:
well thats good!!!! hope you get to feeling even better! 
Last night turned out to be a bust. We ended up at a lame ass dance club cause the girls wanted to go. We get there and every thing is cool till I turn around and see that there are five bouncers on my friend. They haul his ass out the door and when I get out there I find my other friend is out...
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miserybleeds:
damn dude that sucks!!!! 
get some rest hangovers arent fun
get some rest hangovers arent fun Happy birthday to me! I leave for Portland in 3hrs. Cant wait to get out of this town for a few hours. Got the party going down tommarow night. I'll let you all know how it goes sunday
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muse:
happy birfday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
interesting day to be born on, i must say
hope you have lots of cake.....and balloons too....yes balloons.....but not clowns.....................clowns are scary
interesting day to be born on, i must say
hope you have lots of cake.....and balloons too....yes balloons.....but not clowns.....................clowns are scary
dufforama:
Hmmm it just might be better than sex...at least it is when i get tattooed by JIME!!! 
He did the switchblade and brass knuckles on me!
He did the switchblade and brass knuckles on me!Looks like I have another week of 10 hr days ahead of me 
I know this doesn't sound like a whole lot to some people but when you lift windows that weigh half as much as you do all day it kinda kicks your ass. I was getting a little testy saturday at work. Between all the hours and being sick it got to be...
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I know this doesn't sound like a whole lot to some people but when you lift windows that weigh half as much as you do all day it kinda kicks your ass. I was getting a little testy saturday at work. Between all the hours and being sick it got to be... Read More
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sarah589:
yes i am going crazy without internet and sg all the time.
happy birthday tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lay off the workin and party!! take a flight out to nj and we'll go to new york and ill show ya a good time
hehe
happy birthday tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lay off the workin and party!! take a flight out to nj and we'll go to new york and ill show ya a good time
hehe
dufforama:
Well, i was pretty mad for a min. but then i got over it...well im still a little upset...im lonely and i was really looking forward to dating again...now this just sets me back...but thank u for the comment i wish there was 1 of u here..oh well better luck next time 
and i was really looking forward to dating again...now this just sets me back...but thank u for the comment i wish there was 1 of u here..oh well better luck next time I'm feeling much better now. I woke up this mornning and I could actualy breath through my nose a little and I didn't cough up a lung Thanks to all for your best wishes. Hope every one is having a good weekend. Talk to you all soon
Hellmutt
Thanks to all for your best wishes. Hope every one is having a good weekend. Talk to you all soon
Hellmutt
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grayce:
thats really not good.. drink water before you pass out heh that usually works
dufforama:
yeah it would be cool if we were closer...im sorry but this long distance thingy just isnt working out...im def. gonna have to break up with you 
I'm sick The weather here sucks. It was like 60 on monday and has been snowing ever since. I wish it would make up it's mind. Been working 10 hr days wishing I would just die every min. of them. Oh well it just means I'll have more money to blow on myself for my bithday next weekend. Provided I get over this cold.
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The weather here sucks. It was like 60 on monday and has been snowing ever since. I wish it would make up it's mind. Been working 10 hr days wishing I would just die every min. of them. Oh well it just means I'll have more money to blow on myself for my bithday next weekend. Provided I get over this cold.
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banshee:
Aww..sorry sweetie...wishing some heat for ya!!!
silvereve:
I was thinking the ultimate invention would be a Mr. Thirsty like suction tube that you can stick up the nose and just suck the snot the out instead of having to blow and blow. They have them at the dentists office to suck up drool...it could work.
Another weekend come and gone. Didn't get much done again. I was suposed to get to play at my friends hous saturday night, but his roommates girlfriend was biching up a storm so that didn't happen. I love dragging my bass and amp around for no fucking reason. Not much happend other than that. Hope everyone else had a good weekend!
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miserybleeds:
that's cool. As much as i adore music I'm not musically talented in any way unfortunatly.... i played the piano a little and I have an acustic guitar I played a little I would like to play it again 
laika:
Thanks!!!
Eating snowflakes with plastic forks
and a papper plate of course....
I'm tired as all hell. Hope every one had a good Saint Patty's day. I'll post something better latter. Right now all I want to do is sleep but I have to go pull 9 hrs at the mill.
Latter Hellmutt
and a papper plate of course....
I'm tired as all hell. Hope every one had a good Saint Patty's day. I'll post something better latter. Right now all I want to do is sleep but I have to go pull 9 hrs at the mill.
Latter Hellmutt
If you could go back in time and change one moment in your life, what would it be and why?
willxbtelevised:
i don't think i've made just one bad decisions...there have been several.
so, i think i'll just say "nothing" out of indecision.
so, i think i'll just say "nothing" out of indecision.
The weather here sucks right now. It's like 33 deg. now.
When I get off work at 3:30 it will be 70. What the fuck is up with that? Anyways... I'm getting a chameleon soon. Me and a friend of mine are building a cage for it right now. Other than that all I've been doing is working and sleeping. Hope every one is having...
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When I get off work at 3:30 it will be 70. What the fuck is up with that? Anyways... I'm getting a chameleon soon. Me and a friend of mine are building a cage for it right now. Other than that all I've been doing is working and sleeping. Hope every one is having...
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She walkes on a cloud that is my heart
Floating through my mind in those moments before sleep
Tomorrow waits for me with a knife to my throat
She is nameless faceless and cold
Waiting am I for the cold kiss of her steel
Feel the warm stream of blood run down my chest
feel my body turning cold life draining from it
Is this...
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Floating through my mind in those moments before sleep
Tomorrow waits for me with a knife to my throat
She is nameless faceless and cold
Waiting am I for the cold kiss of her steel
Feel the warm stream of blood run down my chest
feel my body turning cold life draining from it
Is this...
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(right now you're envisioning a panda with shaved legs. and you're laughing.)
but yeah, it really sucks goat balls to have to suck up to the herpes breath retards i deal with weekly.
i had a repulsive guy flirt with me at a table last night. i told him i had a knife in my back pocket. that felt really good.
i enjoy my little digs when i can. simplicity = happiness .... sometimes.