November is AlMost OVER!!!! YayyyyyYY!!!!
i can almost touch december first! hihi ! ive been trough it not that easily but its been way better than i tought it would be.
this week as been really shitty... fucking rain... playz 2 much on my mood... but ive been taking long walk with my dogg and my umbrella to ran away from the bad toughts i had, i left my frustrations on the side walk, i dont want the roomies to pay the price.
ive been really stressed out with alot recently, and a bit disapointed, i visited a bar last week ,actually 2 bars ,with my business partner and again its not working out... i had the bad new yesterday
and at the same time im starting my own production company , at least now i know i can focus on my projects instead of tryin to split my mind betwen both.... if my mind was goin fine.....
heres the third thing thats has been running in my head for the last week , im sooo good with business and sooo bad with feelings... actually i hate havin emotions... ( im totally lyin' right now, i'm such a passionate person) i mean havin emotion like ...i really like someone... i think... maybe i do.... is it luv... nah!!!! it cant be... maybe... FUCK! i really dont know what to do with this... i dont wanna miss my chance and i dont wanna be rejected. should i just be M.O.M ( money over men
) ?? LOL ...is it possible that that someone would accept me as i am , with all my goals and dreams , my split personality , and my erotic/porno carreer... im a great housewife but i dont have the most normal life style... can i really ask someone to take me as i am... he totally knows both sides of me i know he does like me.. but i have no idea how much... i hope enough to share a piece of life.... cuz hes always on my mind. but i have to move on on something with him, i just dont know how.... i just found out i have alot of problem with expressing and sharing my feelings, it really makes me shy... :S and i know that if i want smtg to happen i gotta make the move myself.... i might spend my dayoff working on a plan ....
i have to go to work 4 the last night of the week .... i cant wait to be home and enjoy my week end!
i need some rest.... i fucking deserve it! hope tonight wont be too crazy .... hope the moon is on my side
gotta run! hihi
xxxLuv& Licks
Hellizabeth
i can almost touch december first! hihi ! ive been trough it not that easily but its been way better than i tought it would be.


ive been really stressed out with alot recently, and a bit disapointed, i visited a bar last week ,actually 2 bars ,with my business partner and again its not working out... i had the bad new yesterday

heres the third thing thats has been running in my head for the last week , im sooo good with business and sooo bad with feelings... actually i hate havin emotions... ( im totally lyin' right now, i'm such a passionate person) i mean havin emotion like ...i really like someone... i think... maybe i do.... is it luv... nah!!!! it cant be... maybe... FUCK! i really dont know what to do with this... i dont wanna miss my chance and i dont wanna be rejected. should i just be M.O.M ( money over men

i have to go to work 4 the last night of the week .... i cant wait to be home and enjoy my week end!


gotta run! hihi
xxxLuv& Licks
Hellizabeth

spitbite:
ack. Clowns terrify me
scotty:
Bahahaha, that evil clown has creep written all over him.