Legends of the fall....
the time 's getting real cold here.... the sun is shinning today, i guess it 's what's giving me the strenght to write this blog. we've seen the snow falling on the city more than once.... it always gives me a hope that i'm gonna make it trought this season ... again....
Fall is always a hard season for me.... it all starts with my b-day.... in my kid heart its always hard to figure out im growing up like everybody else... i remember swearing i would never turn into an adult... at 23 with all my responsabilities, maybe i'm not as boring as much of the grownups... but still... i pay billz! I work even if beeing what i am is always sooo much fun, and the years give me experiences i would never had if i was still 6 an a half!
this years was pretty hardcore on alot of fields in my life... i think i grew up alot trought deceptions, rejections,pain, and lost.... life is not always easy , my b-day is not about the presents i get anymore. its about the people that are still there and the one who left...the ones i lost, the ones that will never have another b-day cake.
I lost THE best friend i had in july... she deceided to passed away... she did it her own way... we all make choices that create our path of life, but theres some decisions that lead to something called the end... at first i tought that wouldnt help me at all to go trought this fucking season that always messup with my head but actually she kind of keeps me grounded to this world. Cuz it hurts to much. Pain makes me feel alive. Now i got a make it right for me ... and for her... for all our childhood dreams...
Our decision always reflects on others life... in this pretty individual world we sometimes ( often) forget that everything we do create changes around us and that even when we feel like the only one theres always people in the chain reaction.... we spread the good but we spread the bad.
since now i'm keeping my head up and i'll do my best to share more on what i really am...
maybe hell is not that bad .....
xxx
the time 's getting real cold here.... the sun is shinning today, i guess it 's what's giving me the strenght to write this blog. we've seen the snow falling on the city more than once.... it always gives me a hope that i'm gonna make it trought this season ... again....
Fall is always a hard season for me.... it all starts with my b-day.... in my kid heart its always hard to figure out im growing up like everybody else... i remember swearing i would never turn into an adult... at 23 with all my responsabilities, maybe i'm not as boring as much of the grownups... but still... i pay billz! I work even if beeing what i am is always sooo much fun, and the years give me experiences i would never had if i was still 6 an a half!
this years was pretty hardcore on alot of fields in my life... i think i grew up alot trought deceptions, rejections,pain, and lost.... life is not always easy , my b-day is not about the presents i get anymore. its about the people that are still there and the one who left...the ones i lost, the ones that will never have another b-day cake.
I lost THE best friend i had in july... she deceided to passed away... she did it her own way... we all make choices that create our path of life, but theres some decisions that lead to something called the end... at first i tought that wouldnt help me at all to go trought this fucking season that always messup with my head but actually she kind of keeps me grounded to this world. Cuz it hurts to much. Pain makes me feel alive. Now i got a make it right for me ... and for her... for all our childhood dreams...
Our decision always reflects on others life... in this pretty individual world we sometimes ( often) forget that everything we do create changes around us and that even when we feel like the only one theres always people in the chain reaction.... we spread the good but we spread the bad.
since now i'm keeping my head up and i'll do my best to share more on what i really am...
maybe hell is not that bad .....
xxx
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-look forward to birthdays no matter what, until your 25, dont know what to look forward to after that. still trying to figure that one out.
-and if your in hell then it def cant be that bad, ill have a homie i can chill with
Beautiful set Hellizabeth.
Awesome words.
Take care, ok?