You wanna lift me up but
you don't know and you don't see
I'm stuck in my ways
getting a hair cut today. just a trim, I need it.
having an off day, I am. Some days are better than others.
Just worrying about things, too much, I suppose.
I wish I could be better at all the things I lack.
When does it get easier?
I wish I knew. I wish...I wish...
When you've had enough,
and you've got it bad enough
and you can't let go.
When it comes to blows,
and you start to overflow,
and you can't get home.
It's a subtle kind of cruel,
it taps my spine.
Don't you wanna be happy with me?
Tonight, pizzawhoring. Last night, I got cut really early. like, after 45 minutes. we had too many drivers.
I just want to be able to get by again. Maybe I won't fuck it up this time.
Come on, May 3rd. I can't keep this up much longer.
I don't think that just a little peace of mind is too much to ask.
I know, it's hard to deal with my crazy. Trust me no one has a harder time with it than I do.
It just seems to me like I'm going no where. I want to be back in school so badly. but I know it won't happen, at least not for a while longer.
I need to be cleaning, or something, but to be honest, I don't really feel it.
trying to get happy. it's working a little.
I know it must be hard for him to see me like this. I hope he can forgive me for that.
I need some real pain soon. I need new ink. I can't think of anything else I really want pierced.
Just some pain to let me know I am still alive.
I have to do something, I think I'll go for a walk. anything to not think about all the things running through my head.
He says it will all be ok. I guess I just have to trust him. That isn't the easiest thing for me to do. But I am trying.
and how.
later for y'all...
edited to say: A fabulous haircut, and a much better fucking mood.
I've made such wonderful new friends. and I guess the BF ain't bad either.
Better living through chemicals...
Remember me? I'm trying to get out. Scratching and clawing, if you will.
Best not get in my way now.
you don't know and you don't see
I'm stuck in my ways
getting a hair cut today. just a trim, I need it.
having an off day, I am. Some days are better than others.
Just worrying about things, too much, I suppose.
I wish I could be better at all the things I lack.
When does it get easier?
I wish I knew. I wish...I wish...
When you've had enough,
and you've got it bad enough
and you can't let go.
When it comes to blows,
and you start to overflow,
and you can't get home.
It's a subtle kind of cruel,
it taps my spine.
Don't you wanna be happy with me?
Tonight, pizzawhoring. Last night, I got cut really early. like, after 45 minutes. we had too many drivers.
I just want to be able to get by again. Maybe I won't fuck it up this time.
Come on, May 3rd. I can't keep this up much longer.
I don't think that just a little peace of mind is too much to ask.
I know, it's hard to deal with my crazy. Trust me no one has a harder time with it than I do.
It just seems to me like I'm going no where. I want to be back in school so badly. but I know it won't happen, at least not for a while longer.
I need to be cleaning, or something, but to be honest, I don't really feel it.
trying to get happy. it's working a little.
I know it must be hard for him to see me like this. I hope he can forgive me for that.
I need some real pain soon. I need new ink. I can't think of anything else I really want pierced.
Just some pain to let me know I am still alive.
I have to do something, I think I'll go for a walk. anything to not think about all the things running through my head.
He says it will all be ok. I guess I just have to trust him. That isn't the easiest thing for me to do. But I am trying.
and how.
later for y'all...
edited to say: A fabulous haircut, and a much better fucking mood.
I've made such wonderful new friends. and I guess the BF ain't bad either.
Better living through chemicals...
Remember me? I'm trying to get out. Scratching and clawing, if you will.
Best not get in my way now.
VIEW 9 of 9 COMMENTS
junecleavage:
yee fucking haw baby - life is golden - and so are we... 
amina:
Im getting new ink pretty soon, its gonna be a shocker.