hellcat77

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i recently just lost a parent and less then a year before my best friend, so it is alot to deal with for now. it is alot of pressure, i have had pressure my whole life.

then to have a so called friend question my life and hardships? and throw them back in my face after i decided to tell him about my life?

so called friend, don't ever feel sorry for me. i don't feel sorry for me and through the bullshit neither do you. its all bullshit words.

you werent anything, not even nice, you have no heart or head on your shoulders anyway. your just a mean little person. to throw my issues in my face to use them as leverage, lame.

to throw that your life is bad because you havent had it bad?
so then i guess you love getting hit on by gay men then?
thats what you told me? guess you lied about your grandmom then too?
and your food poisioning? i am just saying back what i was told? there aint no way i believe you either. and the way people treat you, maybe you like the drama. doesnt feel good when someone throws bullshit in your face does it?

your word and character is as limp as your penis.

you would think people care but false friends never do. the true you came out over as little as three conversations.

i wish i had a apple pie life sometimes, but i dont. i have struggled and outlived and lost more then my share. i try to keep my head up because in the end, what can you really do but move on?

to have all of my downfalls thrown in my face shows the lack of mental capacity by a supposid friend.

even if i dont sign in till the last day here it was an learning expierence about knowing who you are exactly and not letting anyone make you be someone else,

i dont do anything for appluase or kudos and i never apologize for who i am. people either get me or they dont, sadthing is people rarely do.

im not perfect, i do the best i can and i treat people as best i can, and in the end thats what i can offer and if people dont really like it, i see it as theyre problem not mine.

being a recovering cutter doesnt make me anything but searching for hope and trying to cope, that was a bitch move to throw any of that in my face. true friends never throw your short comings in your face. there are alot of ladies on this site struggling with issues, this really isnt a place for you if you throw peoples issues in their faces especially a womans?

you are beyond mean kicking someone when they are down by accussing them of something that was never said, you took it out of context like almost everything i told you.

i didnt even want to further explain on voicemail i was so disgusted, i dont have to justify my life or hardships to anyone. i have people who have been here since the start of my life that would have more then told you about my unfortunate circumstances.

you will not drag me down either with your control and insecurity issues, not to mention, all of your other issues. thanks to the support i have gotten, there are good people out there still!!!!!!