Good morning sg friends.
Ahh, it has been an emotionally rough week. Thank goodness this time next week I'll be in a new house, that doesnt smell like dog piss!
Me and David have decided to pawn off the xbox because we arent spending as much time together as we used to. That'll be good.
I really dont have anything important to say, except I had another bad dream last night. I think i want to start posting all my dreams, either that I currently have, or have had in the past.
Last night i dreamt that I broke up with David, and I was seeing another guy. Then the second half was basically me running back to David, begging him to take me back (while bawling like a baby). Im thinking this is just basically saying that I cant be happy with anybody else.
I have never been in love like this. This love is so more mature than anything else I have ever experienced.
Its scary, yet exhilarating, to think that I will probably be getting married to this man. Sometimes I still feel like im holding back, not trying to get my hopes up, just in case in doesnt happen. I hope everything does work out for the best, im tired of being let down. I know im so young, but ive had a lot of experience. You are probably laughing, but im serious. The past four years of my life I havent been single more than two months, and boy.. ive had my heart broken too many times to count. That probably explains why my weight fluctuate so much... when im happy and in love i gain weight and when im depressed i stop eating completely.
Ive actually battled anorexia since the age of 12, and sometimes i tend to have relapses. Its hard to actually diet normally, i lose so much more weight faster by just stop eating for a few months... haha.
Ahh, it has been an emotionally rough week. Thank goodness this time next week I'll be in a new house, that doesnt smell like dog piss!
Me and David have decided to pawn off the xbox because we arent spending as much time together as we used to. That'll be good.
I really dont have anything important to say, except I had another bad dream last night. I think i want to start posting all my dreams, either that I currently have, or have had in the past.
Last night i dreamt that I broke up with David, and I was seeing another guy. Then the second half was basically me running back to David, begging him to take me back (while bawling like a baby). Im thinking this is just basically saying that I cant be happy with anybody else.
I have never been in love like this. This love is so more mature than anything else I have ever experienced.
Its scary, yet exhilarating, to think that I will probably be getting married to this man. Sometimes I still feel like im holding back, not trying to get my hopes up, just in case in doesnt happen. I hope everything does work out for the best, im tired of being let down. I know im so young, but ive had a lot of experience. You are probably laughing, but im serious. The past four years of my life I havent been single more than two months, and boy.. ive had my heart broken too many times to count. That probably explains why my weight fluctuate so much... when im happy and in love i gain weight and when im depressed i stop eating completely.
Ive actually battled anorexia since the age of 12, and sometimes i tend to have relapses. Its hard to actually diet normally, i lose so much more weight faster by just stop eating for a few months... haha.
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christmasjones:
New love is always the most awesome thing. Just take things one day at a time and make sure you are both on the same page about everything. Good luck with the new place. Moving sucks, but starting over is liberating. Hearts
heliumqueen:
Well, haha, we've been together almost a year. And as for moving, we are moving right down the street.. so i wont get to do much starting over 