Hmm... I haven't been around for quite sometime. Work, school, and random weirdness has kept me busy lately. For now it's just work and random weirdness. So many changes lately have my head spinning. Some good friends are moving an hour away, not too far, but still sad. A strange romance with a girl that I know probably isn't right for me, but I still want her.
That's the big one. It's been a long time since I have been interested in anyone and this girl iiniated the whole thing, and now that I have finally yielded to her advances, she's backing off a bit. There is always this "push and pull" with her... a bit of a tug 'o war, while I have always maintained a pretty even keel. She's a lot younger than me (just turned 21), but she is mature beyond her years. We've discussed this matter, and she has assured me it is a non-issue with her. And, I believe her. But, she's afraid to get attatched because she might be going away for awhile. And, to make matters even more complicated... I have competition, apparently.
She told me she is also "casually" seeing someone else. She doesn't want to get attatched to him either. She mentioned that he is beautiful, but selfish. Whatever that means. She hasn't slept with him, and I'm inclined to believe her, only because she says she wants too. Churn. But, she slept with me the same night she mentioned all this to me over dinner. Finally, after two months. So I don't know where things are going with her, she's a bit of a flake i.e. doesn't return calls or e-mails right away. Which is irrititating. And, I hardly ever call or e-mail in the first place (because of this). I'm tired of "near misses" and "flakey" girls. One reason why I feel like not even bothering anymore. I'm ready to become a Monk. I already live like one anyway.
In lighter news... I got a wonderful new digital SRL camera, that I am in love with. I'll post photos soon.
P.S. Also, seeing The Eagles of Death Metal last night was the most fun I have had in a very long time... I love them.
That's the big one. It's been a long time since I have been interested in anyone and this girl iiniated the whole thing, and now that I have finally yielded to her advances, she's backing off a bit. There is always this "push and pull" with her... a bit of a tug 'o war, while I have always maintained a pretty even keel. She's a lot younger than me (just turned 21), but she is mature beyond her years. We've discussed this matter, and she has assured me it is a non-issue with her. And, I believe her. But, she's afraid to get attatched because she might be going away for awhile. And, to make matters even more complicated... I have competition, apparently.
She told me she is also "casually" seeing someone else. She doesn't want to get attatched to him either. She mentioned that he is beautiful, but selfish. Whatever that means. She hasn't slept with him, and I'm inclined to believe her, only because she says she wants too. Churn. But, she slept with me the same night she mentioned all this to me over dinner. Finally, after two months. So I don't know where things are going with her, she's a bit of a flake i.e. doesn't return calls or e-mails right away. Which is irrititating. And, I hardly ever call or e-mail in the first place (because of this). I'm tired of "near misses" and "flakey" girls. One reason why I feel like not even bothering anymore. I'm ready to become a Monk. I already live like one anyway.
In lighter news... I got a wonderful new digital SRL camera, that I am in love with. I'll post photos soon.
P.S. Also, seeing The Eagles of Death Metal last night was the most fun I have had in a very long time... I love them.