heckler

Well in my last post on here I said "things are great"...

Normal service was resumed shortly afterwards & I'm back to being fucked up

Things were going great with Kate until, literally overnight, they weren't. In her words she "freaked out". We had a really nice evening, just hanging out, a few drinks & she was happy. The next day she just said she had "freaked out & couldn't do this at the moment" I knew she had certain issues she was trying to work out but to say it was unexpected is understatement. We're still talking on a fairly regular basis though so I'm hoping she'll sort out what she needs to sort out & be ready to start again.
It least it wasn't me doing the freaking out which has always been the case in the past.

My job still sucks
I'm still in debt (although thats improving)
& I'm still stuck living with my damn parents.
I've been suffering from some pretty intense mood swings the last couple of weeks & I can see myself staring down into that mental & emotional abyss again. I don't think I'm going that way at the moment but it wouldn't take much

ah well I suppose I should be used to it all by now

Edited to say:
As you may be able to tell the mood swings were in full force when I wrote this. especially that last bit. nothing like a bit of melodramatic, self pitying to make you feel better