I've kinda settled down a little now from the extremes of anxiety I was feeling earlier in the week. But I'm not sure if it's better or worse. I think actually "settled" is the wrong word, "slumped" may be a better description. The fear is still there, the panic is still lurking under the surface, but I think I've just run out of energy to...
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I've been a bit of a mess today
okay a lot of a mess
Thing should be so straight forward, but they're not, & sometimes it's just hard to cope
This is one of those times.
But tomorrow is a new day
& as my grandmother used to tell me
whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger
I hope she's right
I have the best...
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okay a lot of a mess
Thing should be so straight forward, but they're not, & sometimes it's just hard to cope
This is one of those times.
But tomorrow is a new day
& as my grandmother used to tell me
whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger
I hope she's right
I have the best...
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bratpanties:
aaaaaaaaand breathe. No anxiety attacks today!
bratpanties:
*grabs your shoulders and shakes you like we're in a movie*
Don't freak out on me, Captain!
Don't freak out on me, Captain!
I often wonder where I'd me if I'd done things differently in the past
If I'd worked harder at school, if I hadn't been so painfully shy throughout my childhood. If' I'd been capable of asking for help when I needed it, If I'd had more, hell if I'd had any, self confidence.
I mean I'm an intelligent guy, the few IQ tests I've taken...
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If I'd worked harder at school, if I hadn't been so painfully shy throughout my childhood. If' I'd been capable of asking for help when I needed it, If I'd had more, hell if I'd had any, self confidence.
I mean I'm an intelligent guy, the few IQ tests I've taken...
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cptpyjama:
I feel better about having dropped out of uni. Although I only did a year.
brightredscream:
I know exactly what you mean, I often wonder where I'd be now if I had done things different....
No point in second guessing right?
No point in second guessing right?
some vids of bands I watched over the weekend in no particular order the quality of some bands is better than others
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janegeraldine:
Lol. Very much so. I agree. You are so cute.
marvel:
And I love you ♥
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el_bandito:
Happy Birthday!!
niobe:
Happy Birthday!
I'm leaving in a few hours for the yearly week of drinking & music known as the Download Festival 
the forecast isn't great which is a pain..lots of showers & stuff but I'll survive I'm sure
should anyone feel like watching any of the main stage bands over the weekend they're having a live webcast
& this is the line up
I'll be back on...
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the forecast isn't great which is a pain..lots of showers & stuff but I'll survive I'm sure
should anyone feel like watching any of the main stage bands over the weekend they're having a live webcast
& this is the line up
I'll be back on...
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velvet_petal:
Happy birthday Heckler!!
The weather here has kinda matched my mood the last week or so..or maybe it's my mood that's matching the weather? who knows.
Right now as I look out of the window I see the trees bending over under the strength of the wind, I can hear the roar as the gusts force their way through the new green leaves. I can see the rain...
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Right now as I look out of the window I see the trees bending over under the strength of the wind, I can hear the roar as the gusts force their way through the new green leaves. I can see the rain...
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_margot_:
he..he..
thanks
thanks
velvet_petal:
I had fun goofing off. How are things in Hecklerland? Are you over that bug and feeling 100%? Is the immigration stuff going okay?
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marvel:
I loves you so much ♥
marvel:
I love you because you're you - and I couldn't possibly love you more ♥
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dryad:
mooses are less portable than woodchucks.
dryad:
Maybe I'll invest in one of those rolling bags...
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mildots:
PIMP!
janegeraldine:
Certainly I am familiar with the English language, and handsome is definitely the word I was looking for. 
Before I start I'd just like take a moment to dedicate this blog to my beautiful, sweet & adorable fiancee Marvel who's never stopped bugging & harassing me for the last 2 1/2 months since my last blog to get another one written
This ones for you baby
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm where to start
It's actually difficult to know how to go about writing this, not because...
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This ones for you baby
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm where to start
It's actually difficult to know how to go about writing this, not because...
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bratpanties:
So I pondered it for a while. How do you feel about skinny ties? Bowties? Waistcoats? Formal pants? Black jeans?
Maybe if you make a list of Stuff Grooms Wear and then strike off what you definitely WON'T wear, you'll be left with a somewhat more concise list of stuff you'd like to wear? Like a black shirt/top hat/skinny white tie type situation?
I dunno. I just think the top hat is mega, so you gotta wear that!
Maybe if you make a list of Stuff Grooms Wear and then strike off what you definitely WON'T wear, you'll be left with a somewhat more concise list of stuff you'd like to wear? Like a black shirt/top hat/skinny white tie type situation?
I dunno.
I just think the top hat is mega, so you gotta wear that!
sweetloretta:
thanks Heckler. youre such a great guy and a truly wonderful soul. i was honestly worried that people would be sort of disappointed in reading a blog like that from me, but so far everyones been amazingly supportive.
In my usual fashion I haven't updated this blog in a looooooooooooong time
I was just about to finish packing & get on a plane to visit Marvel the last time I wrote in here
Lots has happened since then.
I guess I should start right there where I left off. For the sake of narrative clarity & all
I had a long unexciting flight...
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I was just about to finish packing & get on a plane to visit Marvel the last time I wrote in here
Lots has happened since then.
I guess I should start right there where I left off. For the sake of narrative clarity & all
I had a long unexciting flight...
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j_r:
Hahaha!
Hey there fella!
How's tricks?
Yeah, that was my annual blog! lol I'm gonna make a concerted effort to be less of a lurker this year.
You're engaged too? Good effort! Gotta snag the good ones, eh? lol
Hey there fella!
How's tricks?
Yeah, that was my annual blog! lol I'm gonna make a concerted effort to be less of a lurker this year.
You're engaged too? Good effort! Gotta snag the good ones, eh? lol
♥