heavensent77

Happy B-Day!

I understand what you mean by the so called "Tropical" situation. We have actually been talking lately but the thing I don't like still is that whenever something comes up as far as hanging out together, it still always has to be what he wants to do. So, I have been doing my own thing with my friends and I always invite him - I always tell him that he is more than welcome to hang out with me and my friends (and he knows that when and if he were to hang out with me and my friends - he can just relax or do whatever he so wishes), but it is always the same answer: 'No Thanks'. But at least we are on talking terms and that is what I wanted, so I'm not going to complain. There has just been talking; no fighting, no disagreements. If what we want to do does not suit the other, then we just go about our business and do our own thing, but we always invite one another. He actually invited me over to you guys' place the other day (I was very shocked at that), but I couldn't make it due to other plans that I had - I am still dying to see it though. I will be over sometime soon hopefully. I still want you to take some pics for me.

happy easter/egg hunting day! *hugz*

not only hard sadly- all but impossible im afraid. i almost consider a curse at times my ability to read human nature and see the patterns that make up who a person is. the reason why i kinda detest that, is that maybe- if i were more like our friend professor dumble-dorf. maybe at leat i would think im happy about the state of affairs even if i truley wasnt.

after now just a little while i can see the exact nature of the gap between my most rightious tropical roomie and your brand of living. and while i have no place to judge, condem or blame anyone for enjoy their life according to what they feel is best. i do believe that it in the tropical ones best interest as well as yours for there to be no bad sitchuations.

and as well, he knows that i absolutely will not tolerate at all, any of the yelling and fighting that kinda seem to be a part of the last couple interactions he has been involved in.

that being said- for at least the time being, this is the best venue for me and you to continue exchanging ideals and interests. i need for the new home environ to be safe and stable, i dont have a roof over my head otherwise.

now, remeber how i said i was gunna sit back and look at things and see how things played out and what it all ment?

well, hey- i do have to say, let dumble dorf go. let him off. i pegged it on the nail in the first what couple hours we hung out. about your need to maintain emotional connection. its not right girl, you know what you need to do. if infact your were being honest about what you intended, then i fail to see why you havnet pulled the trigger on this issue. if there is a bank account involved withdraw what your due and be done. if its a joint account, the is no legal way to remove one name by itself.

anything else can be dealt with using a divorce document. so, i dont get it enlighten me?

is there more to the story? have you been paying attention to him at all? or to your friend(s) more? who have you been neglecting most? who do you want to grow old with - friends or him? how serious were you about him?

the dynamics of your relationship with both is the very problem. mostly likely you will have to give one up and live with it.

thank u 4 be a grood friend and no things will get better 4 u. i will look 4ward 2 reading ur entries and hope u enjoy mine. i want u 2 know that im always here 4 u and be there 4 u. we had a good knight chillin tonight and inlighting r minds. well i will end this because theres a line waiting 2 use this computer.
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hmmmmm :::scratches head:::::