heavenandhell

Well I decided to come home, but things aren't working out how I expected them to, so who knows for how long I'll be back.

I had a really awesome time 'running away' to my brothers and discovered what a really great guy I've been missing out on over the last few years. I'm sad about that, but we are going to make amends and never let it get that bad again.

Sitting on the beach and listening to the waves was a very humbling experience, reminding me, no matter what shit goes on with our lives, the world still goes on and we are pretty insignificant. Kind of puts things into perspective.

I have never laughed so much and met some wonderful people, oh and never drunk so much beer or wine either, that was pretty perfect in itself.

So all in all, I had a brilliant time and discovered some good and bad stuff about myself, as well as the real me. I discovered I am a real person who is entitled to an opinion and to express those opinions, something that has been suppressed for so long.

Yeah, I'm aware I'm rambling on, I'll stop now.

Hope you have all been well while I've been gone. Keep on smiling.

Loads of love. xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Oh, a song, I almost forgot. I like to leave a song, sharing something I heard that means something to me.
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CALL AND ANSWER

I think its getting to the point
Where I can be myself again
I think its getting to the point
Where we have almost made amends
I think its the getting to the point
That is the hardest part.

And if you call, I will answer
And if you fall, Ill pick you up
And if you court this disaster
Ill point you home

You think I only think about you
When were both in the same room
You think Im only here to witness
The remains of love exhumed
You think were here to play
A game of who loves more than whom

And if you call, I will answer
And if you fall, Ill pick you up
And if you court this disaster
Ill point you home

You think its only fair to do whats
Best for you and you alone
You think its only fair to do the same
To me when youre not home
I think its time to make this something that is
More than only fair

So if you call, I will answer
And if you fall, Ill pick you up
And if you court this disaster
Ill point you home.

But Im warning you, dont ever do
Those crazy, messed up things that you do
If you ever do
I promise you Ill be the first to crucity you
Now its time to prove that youve come back
Here to rebuild.