heavenandhell

i'm venting my spleen again. here seems as good a place to do it and it's better than throwing something or screaming.

life still sucks and i have no answers. i don't know what to think, do, say or how to act. i guess i'm just plain confused. it almost feels like an out of body experience, that i'm here but i'm not. floating up somewhere out there looking down at the world and it's chaos, my chaos. i feel like the whole world is against me, waiting to pounce as soon as i make the wrong move. how egotistical of me, what does the world care, why should they care, it's only me, one amongst many. what shall i do now, nothing i expect. afterall i have no right to make any demands. i am nothing and that is the way i shall stay.

thankyou stlouisemt for cheering me up yesterday and making me smile, no more than smile, laugh. i can't wait for the DVDs to come.

also thankyou to invisbleguy for being there, listening to me, and offering advice. the final comment you made was perfect.