I’m saying goodbye. I’m jettisoning all the things that are making me unhappy (where I can). All the thinking habits.
You see, I’ve spent the last ten years in a thought prison of my own making. I’ve spent the time subconsciously choosing to live a life I’m not satisfied with.
I’ve believed that if I want to be happy I have to be a certain way, and that belief made me feel inadequate as the person I wanted to be was not a person I could be.
So I’m throwing off those shackles right now.
The world will continue to orbit and planes won’t fall out of the sky. I won’t die.
The truth is I’m happy. Most mornings I wake up feeling optimistic about the day ahead. I don’t feel the urge to chase more but I’m satisfied with how my life is right now. I don’t need much to make me happy. Instead I set goals that are realistic and genuinely what I want.
I feel like there’s something about the world humans have built for themselves that have made me feel ashamed. You have to be a certain way to fit in. You have to be this or that. You spend your life running away from all these labels you’re harassed by if you live outside the cultural norms.
It takes strength and courage to live outside those cultural norms. I really don’t care anymore. I’m not for everyone, I accept that.
I write these words because I’m joyful. I don’t mean to preach or make anyone feel insecure (c’est la vie!).