hazie

fuck you

why do I pay for this shit if that's how I'm treated. fuck YOU .

FUCK you for trashing my thoughts and feelings. yea so what I think about one damn girl... I write about it here... I was born in 19 fucking 83. SO THE FUCK WHAT.

fuckyoufuckyoufuckyoufuckyouandyourmommyTOO!

I'm bored, I need something to do today, and tomorrow night.

any gals wanna hang out? shoot some pool? play some video games or watch some movies... I am definately down with that. I just don't like being coooped up in this dank stank room!

I should change my "fantasy" to drowned in a bucket of my own tears.

I sweat for you.

I cry for you.

I bleed for you.

I long for you.

I dream for you.

what do I get in return?

I get hurt by you.

still sick, Have to work, going to see *her*
going to be sad AND sick.

if I never made an entry about her again who would be happy?


you?

yea probably

but not me.

so I am hopeless. no one is making you come here.

FACT:

I feel better and have more fun when I am not sick.

lots to talk about/write about.

long story.

short version: shot pool, invited nikki. she came .... brought friends but I knew them all from work. fun times. pool is great. best with her though.

friends dissappate.... have to take breeze home grr not a good thing... made things more difficult. talked nikki into comming to MY house. it worked, she followed me... I WIN. not...
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The Most amazing and probably worst possible thing has happened to me.

of course you know then that this must be about nikki.

FEAR NOT though. we are still friends..... as much as we were before anyhow. we went to celebrate a friend of our's leaving the store moving on to bigger and better things type party.... it was nice. I made her a new...
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cheers to a good evening. today was impeccibly boring. sitting around the house not doing much of anything. but ah hah! I had a plan you see... although now that I think about it I should have rented that movie I needed to watch... NO MATTER THOUGH! hah you see... I have just returned from playing pool with Nikki, Chris, and Carlos! (at this very...
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