hazie

I sweat for you.

I cry for you.

I bleed for you.

I long for you.

I dream for you.

what do I get in return?

I get hurt by you.

still sick, Have to work, going to see *her*
going to be sad AND sick.

if I never made an entry about her again who would be happy?


you?

yea probably

but not me.

so I am hopeless. no one is making you come here.

FACT:

I feel better and have more fun when I am not sick.

lots to talk about/write about.

long story.

short version: shot pool, invited nikki. she came .... brought friends but I knew them all from work. fun times. pool is great. best with her though.

friends dissappate.... have to take breeze home grr not a good thing... made things more difficult. talked nikki into comming to MY house. it worked, she followed me... I WIN. not...
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The Most amazing and probably worst possible thing has happened to me.

of course you know then that this must be about nikki.

FEAR NOT though. we are still friends..... as much as we were before anyhow. we went to celebrate a friend of our's leaving the store moving on to bigger and better things type party.... it was nice. I made her a new...
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cheers to a good evening. today was impeccibly boring. sitting around the house not doing much of anything. but ah hah! I had a plan you see... although now that I think about it I should have rented that movie I needed to watch... NO MATTER THOUGH! hah you see... I have just returned from playing pool with Nikki, Chris, and Carlos! (at this very...
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called her up at work today.

I was afraid.

greeted by heather I believe... what a cute girl.

the first time I've ever been treated nicely on that phone.... no attitude only a sweet voice.

the voice told me she would get HER, and asked who it was.

I told her.

held for a bit.

then there she was.

"what happened last night?"
-I got...
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I asked her to shoot pool at the golden cue.


24 hour pool.

she wanted to go. I wanted her to go I wanted to spend just some time with her having fun hitting on her all night... leading up to me telling her: "Nikki, I love you."


how naive.

I even washed my hair twice just so when she ran her fingers through it...
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warning you now this is a long one:
I do not get nikki. at all. our relationship is fixed. things are better. I don't know why I like her soo much. can you tell me why? I got to hang out at this local bar (however I don't think I'll be let back till march..) anyhow it's nikki's favorite place to play pool for some...
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I'm tired of the stupid people. can't we just take them out in the street and put them out of my misery?




also:

I watched that cops mardi gras thing... isn't it kind of IRONIC... getting arrested for "disturbing the peace" during mardi gras in new orleans. ... how can they really justify the current situation peaceful... it should be more like "disturbing the mildly...
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nothing going on ,,, just boredom I should probably rest right now so I can do something later and not need much sleep tonight ...
to bad it's not that easy.

in home depot news ... Nikki gave me the WEIRDEST look today... she was like um following me with her eyes... well actually she was just kind of watching me... I dunno. I wish...
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