Anyways, It starts with basically being happy a few years ago with a girl and then get left, but dragged along. Honestly it was definately best thing overall to have it end, but it hurt me bad. Basically the best way to describe it and my reaction is in a Senses Fail song.
"Every Day Is A Struggle"
I was the chapstick in your purse, to keep you smooth.
I was the finger in your throat, to keep you cute.
My liver hates you for walking out on us.
My kidney's drowning in a pool of a long lost love.
I stole your perfume to spray in my room,
You will always be here.
So Much for the past year,
I poured it down the drain with all the alcohol and pain I got from,
Your Eyes, Oh Your Eyes.
I'm burning out my bedside,
And I'm rotting out my insides slowly.
I was the hand that held your hair back from your face.
Now I must forget the way you taste.
I stole your perfume to spray in my room,
You will always be here.
So Much for the past year,
I poured it down the drain with all the alcohol and pain I got from,
Your Eyes, Oh Your Eyes.
I'm burning out my bedside,
And I'm rotting out my insides slowly.
I love you so damn much; I'll even start to pray.
I'll put my faith in all your bullshit if it means you'll stay.
[Repeat]
So Much for the past year,
I poured it down the drain with all the alcohol and pain I got from,
Your Eyes, Oh Your Eyes.
I'm burning out my bedside,
And I'm rotting out my insides,
I'm burning out my bedside,
And I'm rotting out my insides.
I love you so much, I started praying.
I love you so much that I started praying.
[Repeat]
It was bad. Really really bad. I was going to work hung over every day and killing about a liter of vodka every 3-4 days. Even when she came back I was bad. Basically I knew then I shouldn't be with her anymore, but there was the fear of being alone and a ton of other things that kept me from leaving. Eventually pulled it together and stopped drinking. Dropped the girl and started hanging out with other people and was actually going to SG stuff and Mugs n Jugs when it was happening (RIP).
As time passes I picked up more hobbies and kept working the same job though eventually Kodak bought the company. Basically I passed time playing games, hanging out with friends, and working.
Then came the new girl... (update tomorrow, since I am too tired
)
"Every Day Is A Struggle"
I was the chapstick in your purse, to keep you smooth.
I was the finger in your throat, to keep you cute.
My liver hates you for walking out on us.
My kidney's drowning in a pool of a long lost love.
I stole your perfume to spray in my room,
You will always be here.
So Much for the past year,
I poured it down the drain with all the alcohol and pain I got from,
Your Eyes, Oh Your Eyes.
I'm burning out my bedside,
And I'm rotting out my insides slowly.
I was the hand that held your hair back from your face.
Now I must forget the way you taste.
I stole your perfume to spray in my room,
You will always be here.
So Much for the past year,
I poured it down the drain with all the alcohol and pain I got from,
Your Eyes, Oh Your Eyes.
I'm burning out my bedside,
And I'm rotting out my insides slowly.
I love you so damn much; I'll even start to pray.
I'll put my faith in all your bullshit if it means you'll stay.
[Repeat]
So Much for the past year,
I poured it down the drain with all the alcohol and pain I got from,
Your Eyes, Oh Your Eyes.
I'm burning out my bedside,
And I'm rotting out my insides,
I'm burning out my bedside,
And I'm rotting out my insides.
I love you so much, I started praying.
I love you so much that I started praying.
[Repeat]
It was bad. Really really bad. I was going to work hung over every day and killing about a liter of vodka every 3-4 days. Even when she came back I was bad. Basically I knew then I shouldn't be with her anymore, but there was the fear of being alone and a ton of other things that kept me from leaving. Eventually pulled it together and stopped drinking. Dropped the girl and started hanging out with other people and was actually going to SG stuff and Mugs n Jugs when it was happening (RIP).
As time passes I picked up more hobbies and kept working the same job though eventually Kodak bought the company. Basically I passed time playing games, hanging out with friends, and working.
Then came the new girl... (update tomorrow, since I am too tired
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punksauce:
I feel you..I'm sttarting over as well!
redfirefaery:
the police officer showed up right as i was leaving for work. i told him i'd tried to work it out with the guys repeatedly over the summer, and every time i talked to them it just wasn't worth it. then i left... apparently, when the officer spoke with the guys downstairs, the guys told him they had asked the landlord if they could insulate the wall that so much noise comes through, and the landlord has not let them. at least they've been quieter the past couple nights... i heard some construction going on yesterday during the day, so maybe they were finally getting that insulation up. <prays>