haushinka

Sometimes I wish I had no friends and no family just so that I can sit in my house and do nothing for just one fucking day. I'm running myself ragged by going out almost everyday and seeing people. I had a mental breakdown about 3 weeks ago about this and nothing really has changed. I had to spend today at work til 2, when it should have been my day off. I had 2 people ask me if i wanted to go out for dinner, im like NO. NO NO NO. I AM NOT A FUCKING MONEY MACHINE. Now my mom called and said my dad FINALLY has a day off and can take me fishing tomorrow. While I'd love to go fishing, I'd also love to get some fucking sleep. I don't want to spend my weekend getting up at 7 a.m.

I just want a day to sleep in, take a nice shower, and clean my house at my own pace while chris is working, and listen to halloween music and start decorating. That's how I planned on spending my weekend. Did any of that happen? No, I came home from work, ate dinner, passed out and now it's 8 o clock and I'm not about to start cleaning because for some reason I hate to clean when the sun goes down.