Ya know I realised last night, while stuggling to get to sleep (btw going to work with 2 hours sleep is awsome :| ) that in the last 12 months so many things have just stopped. Some long term some not so much, but it's just... I don't know, just odd. Maybe a little worrying but I don't really know. I guess maybe that's gonna expected considering with in the next week something HUGE is gonna happen in my life, but still...
"Doesn't react well to change" might be something they should write on my next anual aprisal at work... which would be nice when I get one... for the first time in 3 years.
"Doesn't react well to change" might be something they should write on my next anual aprisal at work... which would be nice when I get one... for the first time in 3 years.

new jobs freak the fuck out of me.. new people give me anxiety attacks... youre going through a big change in your life hun and its to be expected, and its ok to be scared, nervous, worried, happy, uncertain, etc. youre allowed to be overwhelmed with feelings.
it might not be easy, it might be rough at times, but it will also be an amazing change, one that you will get used to, and that you will love and do so well with. i have faith in you darling <333