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Is it worrying that the last 2 nights I've been having "survialist" dreams? Normally I don't have / don't remember my dreams but... Yeah. Oh well back to college today. Work all caught up on and done. 1957 on a 1500-2000 work essay, all good!

Okays had a really good xmas with the kids. Both kids really enjoyed it, so all good! Didn't do much for NYE (was in bed for 9:30 actually), but spent the weekend before down the in laws so that was good.
Almost totally up todate with college work so that's good, and I've started doing a little creative writing again, so yays.
Now to find...
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Okay, happier blog as promised.

Right, well firstly, after months of being screwed about, told the company I work for to go shove their job up their arse, and walked straight into a new one! Result! Better hours, and it'll work out in the end with more pay. So woop woop.

Also (for those that don't follow my FB) I got 2 pieces of work...
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Well I was gonna do a really postitive blog, but some shit this morning has put in a a terrible mood. Laura has gone out down her mates, and right now I feel lonely, and, dare I say it, almost wanna cry a little.

AND THIS FUCKING LAPTOP KEEPS CLICKING AND MOVING THE CURSER WHEN I AM TYPING ANYTHING.

Happier blog later.













Promise.

My week in breif.

Wednesday: Worked with "little miss I want", who nearly lost me all my hours in a week till I kicked up a stink.. So instead they've punished the woman I normally work with by moving her, and sticking "Little Miss I Want" with me. Permanently. I she thinks she's getting her own way with me, she can, as my sister would...
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Right now I think I am running on empty. I am just becoming exhausted and I have a grand total of zero percent confidence in my self and what I can do. I keep getting told by my peers that I am doing fine, and can do it but still, not helping really.
And this is effecting loads of stuff, and generally making me down...
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Yeah, hi, blog time again, so WOOOO!
Soooo...
College has been mental, and giving my brain a super huge work out! Good though (I hope!)

Work has been... Stupid annoying for the most part really.

Oh did go to a wedding a few weeks ago (they had LOADS of sweeties there), and the bride has picked this lovely photo for her new FB profile pic...
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Good news! I GOT ACCEPTED! Wooo!!!

Oh and sCentauri, it's an Access to Higher Education course. Means (when I've passed it!) I can go to University!!!

Okay so tomorrow is the day of my college interview. And I'll be honest with you, I am bricking it a wee bit. Yeah, yeah, I know I'll be fine and all that jazz, but still... Ya know, this is a big step for me. This could be the first step to changing the rest of my life, if I can do it, if not......
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In last 24 hours...

1. Had sex: Nope
2. Bought something: Yes. Fuel for the car
3. Gotten sick: Errr... Well i am sick, so does that count.
5. Been kissed: Yes. Wife (LauraBIGboobs), Eldest child, and youngest (sort of... Well she had her nose round her mouth)
6. Ate something: Well duh!
7. Felt stupid: More than likely yes
8. Talked to...
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Okay, yeah, so I know I am a raging mess at the moment with my emotions and mood swings (thank you once again steriods BTW), but I know for a fact in the last 12 months I've become pretty imune to death.
I work, for a living, by choice with "the dead and they dying". It happens. We all die. I mean I am going...
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My week so far:

Had an argument with Laura on sunday (yes I know, I know. I tried the talking thing I really did!), during which I fell down the stairs (yes, fell. Not pushed. All on my own. Nobody anywhere near me. I mean, she cooks for me for gods sake, I'm sure she could find a better way to kill me!), annoying story...
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