just writing for no particular reason.
i'm really tired, can't remember what i wanted to say.
saturday night was lots of fun, stewd and arik's b-day party, sg slumber party. drank way too much.
thinking tonite (this morning, i suppose now) about emailing a friend i haven't talked to in quite some time. we had sort of a falling out when i left to go back to school after summer break, and we haven't really talked since. i can understand that he wouldn't want to talk to me; for christ's sake, i broke his heart. maybe it's selfish of me to want to reinitiate contact. all i really want is my friend back, but i know we probably can't go back to how things used to be, when we could just have fun and even though we both knew how he felt we never spoke of it.
sometimes i do stupid, selfish things.
i think everyone would be well advised to never ever fall for me.
i'm really tired, can't remember what i wanted to say.
saturday night was lots of fun, stewd and arik's b-day party, sg slumber party. drank way too much.
thinking tonite (this morning, i suppose now) about emailing a friend i haven't talked to in quite some time. we had sort of a falling out when i left to go back to school after summer break, and we haven't really talked since. i can understand that he wouldn't want to talk to me; for christ's sake, i broke his heart. maybe it's selfish of me to want to reinitiate contact. all i really want is my friend back, but i know we probably can't go back to how things used to be, when we could just have fun and even though we both knew how he felt we never spoke of it.
sometimes i do stupid, selfish things.
i think everyone would be well advised to never ever fall for me.
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personally, i think that if you want to contact him, that's perfectly fine and not selfish, it sounds like you have genuine reasons and feelings about wanting to try to have some sort of equal friendship. but if he tells you to fuck off, then don't be hurt about it, since it sounds like you pretty much have considered that option anyways, and you understand why he may still be hurt, and know that he has reason to still be hurt and not ready to develop a friendship. and that's when you do apologize and then fuck off. hey, it wouldn't be any worse than it is now for trying since you guys aren't talking anyways, right.
oh, well, that's my two cents. i've been in this situation many times before. luckily i've been able to maintain friendships with a number of exes, but we both took the time we needed at first in order to heal, and then one of us did make the first move to intitiate the friendship. good luck with it all.
hang in there cutie.