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Tuesday Dec 16, 2003

Dec 16, 2003
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In my theatre final, I had to do two short monologues. I did Mephistophele's opening speech from act 2 of the second part of Faust and Garcin's "Hell is other people" revelation from the end of No Exit.
It was the first time I'd been able to remember all the lines, but my mouth went dry about halfway through. So it was hard to pronounce things. Something always goes wrong. frown

When I introduced the pieces, a few people made those disapproving "pssh" noises. They didn't have anything against the material, they just don't like me.
I never insulted or mocked anyone, directly or indirectly. But because I'm very shy, I didn't socialize and usually sat as far away from everyone as possible. I'm also a social retard, so making conversation is a little difficult for me. I either say stupid and weird things or can't think of a response at all. So I try not to say much, in order to avoid embarrassment. This usually comes across as snobbery and people resent me for it. I don't mean to be an asshole, but I can understand why people think I'm one.

Still, even after taking their point of view into consideration, I'm a bit angry about it.
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gasmaskboy:
Whatever, dude I like you. LOL

if I could chill out with you I'd bug you prolly every day.

well ok maybe not every day because I always forget to call my friends anyway.

but none the less we would be playing video games and spouting out nonsense all day long at coffee shops for sure.

It really doesn't matter cuz you know....
even if you were perfect and always said the right thing at the right time someone would hate you and think yer an asshole anyway.

Cuz people always have issues that need to be taken out on someone else so they can feel ok about it.

So feel proud that you're helping out many insecure people deal with the trauma they have inflicted upon themselves.

8 D
Dec 18, 2003
fentopal:
Meh... people suck.

Especially those who pre-judge you only because you're not prone to speaking out. The majority of them probably only speak up so they can hear their own voice.
Dec 18, 2003

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