So, I told the person who cannot be named how I feel about them. The feelings are returned, but they are just now (literally, 2 days ago) getting out of a long term relationship. Speaking of getting out of long term relationships, I broke up with Darling last Thursday. Four and a half years. We havent seen each other for a long time, we dont talk, we havent even had sex in almost 2 months, and sex is the breaking point. I could be in a silent relationship, but I have to have sex. I told him about having feelings for someone else and he was upset, but as soon as we could actually talk face to face, we amicably seperated. No yelling, no arguing, just crying. We're calling this a "break" and in 2 months we'll see each other again and see if itll work.
I need a code name for the person who cannot be named. How about Agent Black? I like that code name.
So, Agent Black and I have been talking way too much. Texting for around 6 hours at a time, then s/he coming over and hanging out on my couch watching movies for another 6 to 8 hours. Generally we sit awkwardly opposite each other, but sometimes with his/her head in my lap half asleep. Its nice to have a friend to tell anything to, we talk about our pasts and all the fears attached. Ive never spoken to someone who didnt question, judge, or try to top the things Ive been through. Agent Black laughs with me and at stupid things I do, but never at my emotions. When Id told Darling about cutting, he got mad and told me to stop it, and its stupid. I told Agent Black and was validated that Ive cut back and Im okay talking about it. I told Darling about being depressed, and he asked why. I told Agent Black about it and was told not to feel bad about it, that they feel the same and Im not alone. Im happy to have a good friend and a killer hot crush on a killer hot person.
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I need a code name for the person who cannot be named. How about Agent Black? I like that code name.
So, Agent Black and I have been talking way too much. Texting for around 6 hours at a time, then s/he coming over and hanging out on my couch watching movies for another 6 to 8 hours. Generally we sit awkwardly opposite each other, but sometimes with his/her head in my lap half asleep. Its nice to have a friend to tell anything to, we talk about our pasts and all the fears attached. Ive never spoken to someone who didnt question, judge, or try to top the things Ive been through. Agent Black laughs with me and at stupid things I do, but never at my emotions. When Id told Darling about cutting, he got mad and told me to stop it, and its stupid. I told Agent Black and was validated that Ive cut back and Im okay talking about it. I told Darling about being depressed, and he asked why. I told Agent Black about it and was told not to feel bad about it, that they feel the same and Im not alone. Im happy to have a good friend and a killer hot crush on a killer hot person.
Des