May I be candid? I have a crush on someone I cannot have a crush on. Its very strange. Im a flirty person, by nature, and cant help acting how I do. But I especially dont try to curb my flirtatiousness around this person. Which is funny, because I never curb it around anyone, in general. I take it as a joke and no one I know takes it seriously. Ive acted more into people I dont feel attracted to at all. I am still serious with my manfriend. But we seem to see each other less and less. We work opposite schedules and see each other about once a week. Having these complicated feelings for someone else makes it harder to focus on Darling. I know this silly crush will never realize. I am fully aware that this, like the last one, will blow over. I crush despite being in love. Blah. I just hope itll blow over soon, Darling and I got a ton of fun new toys, but I cant seem to bring myself to play with this crush looming over my head. A lady has to fantasize about someone else in order to make actual sex worthwhile. That and a ball gag and rope dont hurt...
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