Wow! I really don't update that often.
Things are a bit weird in life right now.
First, the bad: My sister-in-law, Wendy Howlett Harman, has very little time left on this Earth. The cancer she's been fighting for over two years has won. They stopped treatment about a month ago, and estimated whe would have a few months left. Two days ago I found that she is going downhill much faster than predicted. My family live almost half a continent away, so I had hoped to be able to see her over the holidays. My mother informend me that it is essentially already too late. She barely recognizes anyone anymore, and is in a lot of pain. It seems all there is to hope for now is that her pain will be over soon. It's frustrating that I haven't been able to help my family through this more. All I can do is try to get my life in order so that I can leave and go home for the funeral when it happens.
Now, the self-centered: I met someone recently, who seems very cool. We talked for hours the other night, which ended in a long makeout-fool around session. She also came over last night and stayed over. That was all pretty innocent - just cuddling and sleeping. All in all, pretty good.
Today, I got a phone call from another girl, with whom I had a very passionate and romantic affair this summer. We had known each other for years, working at the same summer gig, and this year was the first time we were both single at the same time. It took about twelve seconds for us to get together, and it was instantly not only passionate, but comfortable. We have been communicating quite often via text messaging, but today was the first time we'd actually spoken since August.
The phone call today shook me up a little. It was instantly what I'd remembered. We didn't talk in any lovey-dubbey ways, just conversation about Thanksgiving, food, pets, family, and our lives. However, it was as if no time had passed.
The problem is this: I don't know that I feel right about pursuing the girl I met the other night, knowing that I feel this connection to the summer girl, and am rather hoping to rekindle things next summer. She (the summer girl) and I are free, nay, encouraged, to see other people, but that's not necessarily the reality of what I want.
Things are a bit weird in life right now.
First, the bad: My sister-in-law, Wendy Howlett Harman, has very little time left on this Earth. The cancer she's been fighting for over two years has won. They stopped treatment about a month ago, and estimated whe would have a few months left. Two days ago I found that she is going downhill much faster than predicted. My family live almost half a continent away, so I had hoped to be able to see her over the holidays. My mother informend me that it is essentially already too late. She barely recognizes anyone anymore, and is in a lot of pain. It seems all there is to hope for now is that her pain will be over soon. It's frustrating that I haven't been able to help my family through this more. All I can do is try to get my life in order so that I can leave and go home for the funeral when it happens.
Now, the self-centered: I met someone recently, who seems very cool. We talked for hours the other night, which ended in a long makeout-fool around session. She also came over last night and stayed over. That was all pretty innocent - just cuddling and sleeping. All in all, pretty good.
Today, I got a phone call from another girl, with whom I had a very passionate and romantic affair this summer. We had known each other for years, working at the same summer gig, and this year was the first time we were both single at the same time. It took about twelve seconds for us to get together, and it was instantly not only passionate, but comfortable. We have been communicating quite often via text messaging, but today was the first time we'd actually spoken since August.
The phone call today shook me up a little. It was instantly what I'd remembered. We didn't talk in any lovey-dubbey ways, just conversation about Thanksgiving, food, pets, family, and our lives. However, it was as if no time had passed.
The problem is this: I don't know that I feel right about pursuing the girl I met the other night, knowing that I feel this connection to the summer girl, and am rather hoping to rekindle things next summer. She (the summer girl) and I are free, nay, encouraged, to see other people, but that's not necessarily the reality of what I want.
mavi:
haha--thanks for the comment on my set. 