I feel so bad. Not only is my job shit but my relationship with jason is shakey too. I've felt So bad about the situation at work, I've noticed that lately I've wanted to make love alot more. I know this is because I feel like shit. Make love makes me feel better. Well apparently Jason has noticed too and now he's started to refuse to make love. At first he just said that he didn't feel like it. But after a few times I thought it was awfully strange and I asked him what was going on. He told me that he didn't want to have sex because I feel sad. It makes him feel "uncomfortable"! WHAT THE HELL?! This is a really big deal for me because sex use to mean nothing to me. I used to to turn off all of my emotions and it was like I wouldn't feel anything. So for me to turn to someone for sex to heal and emotional wound is a big step for me. Jason is the only person I've ever been like that with. I guess he doesn't realize how special he is.
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charlize:
I didn't realize you were a twin. I have always wondered what it would be like. Are you close? I bet you get questions like this all the time! Twins are just fascinating for some reason. I hope that you feel better! Everything has to get better sometime, right?
charlize:
Can they do that? At your job? I thought that they can't get mad if you have doctor's note. I guess every state is different, but that sounds shitty. Your boss sounds like a jackass! I hope that things work out with your husband. Have you talked to him yet? It would be good to try to talk things out. Easier said than done, though. I am sorry that you have to go through this. I don't understand why shit like this happens to good people with good intentions and love in their heart. So unfortunate! I have this friend that makes horrible decisions and gets herself in all kinds of messes, but she always ends up okay. I have always tried to be healthy and take care of my body and I need all this surgery. So crazy. That's life. Oh, and I am going to be going to American University. It is in Washington DC. I am double majoring in journalism and French/European Studies. I am really excited...and terrified. It is so far away and there are so many people that I love here. I am going to make the best I can out of the time I have left after I heal from this surgery. Your a nurse, right? Have you thought about looking for a new job where you might be happier? That is another thing that is easier said then done! I hope things are going better!